这一切都是过去

Sad, Down, Moody

2010-03-26T15:34:00.002+08:00

How such a long time i dint online already?

ERR~~~~ don't know...

I really want to share this few week what already happen on my life...

Too much... until now still don't have the ending.

when the "happen" need to solve it?

Bila..... When.....

HAPPY TIGER NEW YEAR

2010-02-12T12:34:00.004+08:00

New Year is Coming~~
Later I need to back home early to clean house alone!!!!!
Seih loh..
Sure tired until die, plus I'm having ...........
Haiz....
Tired plus bleeding plus sweating....

At house, lipat baju, sapu lantai, mop lantai, hang the new year decoration outside the house, clean window, iron the clothes..... sei loh........
Im alone how to finish it at one night.
My daddy, mummy, and sister working, my brother still at school, left me....
My handphone nearly no credit...
I think only the "Music" accompany me.
Music, hi-fi, amplifier, TV.....
Haiz......

But lasty I still need to wish All My friends...
HAPPY TIGER NEW YEAR!!!

After had a talk to teacher

2010-02-03T15:31:00.007+08:00

Yesterday, I go found my class teacher to ask about change class.
Before that, I don't think is possible to have the chance to change it, but at least asked.
The answer still the same. NO!
The reason is because out STPM angka giliran is fixed.
Haiz.....Never mind lah. Keep the same in now.

Then teacher ask me to sit down had a talk.
I already felt that teacher wanted to ask about what.

"Bee Siew, you change a lot compare to last year."
"Ya, in study, I changed a lot, because some 'forces' to push me in front!"
"You mean HE?"
"Not only HE, acually whole gang make me wanted to study hard. Then I need to study hard, SO that I'm no lose to them."
"Actually I can see clearly you and HE and the gang had a gap."
"I also don't know that. He said 'we can't be couple, we still be friends', but I can't see that, because no talk to each other."
"Why you don't try to talk with him?"
"I'm girl, don't wanted to the first."
"......"
"Actually I also don't know what things happen between of us to have that gap.Fine. Now I'm just wanted to study hard only."

Above that dialog had edited. Some too private can't share to us. Sorry.

But after I talk with teacher, I'm blurring. But I still don't know how to solve it.
Blur~~Blur~~ and Blur~~

Miss Feeling

2010-01-26T16:24:00.005+08:00

Two days….

No Sms....

Because my handphone no credits.

RM0.00~~~~~~~~~~

Pitynya...

Miss you.......

I think maybe when Chinese New Year, I'll be go P.Pangkor to take more angpau.

The first day of New Year, I go Malim Nawar, then Kampar.

Second day, stay at Ipoh my grandmum house.

Third day, go taiping.

MAybe fifth day just go Lumut.

Then Friday, go Parade gather with my best friends....

Kaka......

But all still don't know yet.

Still not confirm yet.

No Title

2010-01-26T16:22:00.002+08:00

I felt that I'm become bad girl.
I wanna YOU all dead soon..

Just express it

2010-01-21T14:52:00.002+08:00

Open school how many days?
14 days......
Stress in Upper Six?
No~~~
Relax In Upper Six Also?
Also NO~~~
Err... how to express my feeling now ?
Emn~~~ Don't know...

Homework?
Finish...
Tuition and coco timetable?
Already arrange properly..
Then any things do?
Err... don't know again....

Now i started back "it" again....
No lie, honest....
First time go far alone by bus.
A bit scare..
But i get "it" back....

Maybe someone understand I say what,
But maybe someone don't understand also.

I'm just nothings to do.
Post some nonsense here.
Hehe....

My 1st F6 WORST result

2009-09-04T19:38:00.003+08:00

Today, I receive all my first examination subjects' result.
Worst worst and worst.
Now I really believe my senior said:"We not count A's, is count PASS."
Haiz... so sad but I already know my result will very bad.

Below is my BAD, WORST result.

General paper---45
Physics----------20
Chemistry-------40
Mathematics----39
MUET----------24
TOTAL: >>>>>168

Is it bad? Only pass 2 subjects. So bad.

Finish my examination

2009-08-22T17:43:00.005+08:00

I really don’t what feeling I have now……

Now I just finish my exam, I can feel that I really bad on my first Form 6 examination.

I no try before my english essay write 2 paragraph.

Last time, although the title is hard, I sure will write something and try to don’t leave it blank.

But now I really leave it blank.

After my MUET exam, I tell my classmates, all of them not believe I only write like that.

I also can’t believe I really do such things.

Before that, my classmates like plan how to cheat.

I really feel sad n disappointed when they said like that.

They still said no cheat is impossible.

First day is test PA (general paper), quite important subject just like Malay in SPM.

And also chemistry.

PA I die jor, no study at all, but luckily is multiple choice question and got graph helped me, if not dead again.

Second day is test mathematics and physics.

Both subject are my favourite, but I really not enough time to finish and some question really difficult.

My classmates ask me: “You know how to do? I saw you write non-stop?”

“ I don’t have enough time to do ah! Haiz.. ”

“ Har~ we still have time to sleep because don’t know how to do then better sleep.”

At that second day, I know one thing that really make me sad, that is why he really cheat.

If really don’t how to do the maths then leave blank, why want to cheat, and my friend also let him copy.

Now got one week holiday, I really need do my own note last time Form 5.

Physics, Chemistry, mathematics and my Pengajian Am general paper.

I really tired, I need a small nap, only one day, Sunday.

Then Monday start my study now.

Bee Siew woh, how can’t do it..(this from my friend Reachel Ng said)

Thanks my friends and teachers to support and full considence on me.

My "schdule"

2009-07-20T23:15:00.003+08:00

Long time nno updated my blog..
Because every day i went home nearly 6pm jor...
so left very less time to online to write my blog...sorry to my friends....

Now my "schedule " for every day is fully "book".
Monday
7.30am-3.40pm class study
5.30pm-7.30pm chemistry tuition
8.00pm reach home

Tuesday
7.30am-3.40pm class study
4.30pm-6.30pm physics tuition
7.30pm reach home

Wednesday
7.30am-3.40pm class study
3.40pm-5.30pm self study at school library
6.30pm reach home

Thursday
7.30am-1.05pm class study
1.30pm-3.30pm co-curiculum
5.30pm-7.30pm chemistry tuition
8.00pm reach home

Friday
7.30am-1.05pm class study
1.05pm-4.00pm co-curiculum
4.00pm-5.30pm self study at school library

These all schedule...
Is it very fully book leh?
So homework done oso dun have enough time to do revision...
So how to prepare my exam which coming soon...
haiz.... so cham..

4/7/2009

2009-07-04T20:14:00.006+08:00

Today is Saturday.
Although is Saturday, I still need to go to school because attendance is compulsory.
Hari Anugerah is I attend the first activity in Sam Tet School.

Comment on Hari Anugerah:
Firstly is the band performance. Quite good.
Secondly, “speeching”…bored until die.
Then dance club performance—handkerchief dance.
Next is Tai Chi performance. Wah… very nice...
Then start giving the price to student who having good result. I saw many Leng Chai wear forma..

Then 9.40am, I go duty the computer club…
When start duty, very boring because no “business”. After a while, busy until no time to go toilet, busy until forget the time.

After that, I go parade dating with my dear.
Actually I want watch movie at cinema, but the time are no suitable.
Then we change to KBOX.
2 people in room. Then we got many private & confidential.
Haha…
Then “happying” and “sweeting” and “XXX” !!!
The “XXX” only me n dear know this what..
Dear!! Muakz… love you so much!!!

K^.^C
[LoV3][4eVe]
B^.^S

小南国大饭店

2009-06-08T11:43:00.002+08:00

星期日，我一家人到我家附近的店——小南国大饭店，享用我们的晚餐。

我们点了瓦煲咖哩鱼片、罗汉斋、招牌北京豆腐、奶油撒尿虾和一壶独树香茶。

菜肴不错，我爸和婆婆一直不停赞决那瓦煲咖哩鱼片，很好吃！

我和我妹妹吃了很多不同的菇，有冬菇、草菇、金针菇……很美味。

晚餐吃完了……付钱时候到了！

咦，这样便宜的？

*瓦煲咖哩鱼片-----RM18

*罗汉斋--------------RM12

*招牌北京豆腐-----RM 8

*奶油撒尿虾--------RM12

哈哈……下次晚餐一定再来吃！一定再点我爸挚爱的瓦煲咖哩鱼片。

I'm so happy on this answer from you

2009-06-06T01:59:00.004+08:00

I hear my boyfriend my dear friends break already.

What happen on them? They just start their love? Why so fast break?

What’s wrong on them? Is it boy’s fault or girl’s fault?

But I’m just know from my dear is girl tell break to boy!

Haiz….

So sad on it!

Some friends ask me, why my boyfriend and I’s love relationship still can “tahan” so long time?

I answer I also don’t why!

This question I ask back to my dear through Skype with videocall.

He answer me these:

Because I love you!

That is my real answer.

You also know lah! Before these were many things happen! That is not happy!

But when I think when alone

I think that I love you, and then I can accept what thing was happen

Something I was not happy that was happen

But not happy then can do what

I love you and I want you

Then I just keep it in heart and forget it

I always hope that you treat me good and when I happy and I can forget what thing has happen before

You say correct

You have done many things that make me sad

But I love u

So I choose to forget it and think of why you will like tat

And I will think because is me not good enough

So I try my best to do all the thing and make u happy

That’s why we can together till now.

This is my answer.

After I hear his answer, I straight close our video call and close my web camera!

I start crying out with my tear.

I really cry because I really happy and “gan dong” about that!

Thank you, dear!

I also love you so much!

Where my Mickey Mouse MP3?

2009-06-02T23:01:00.003+08:00

I really don't know at where it placed?
Inside my room? Inside my brother room? Inside my parent room?
Or inside my living room? Inside my kitchen?
After I found...
Haiz...Also make me dispointed...

I can't found it...
That really a special thing...
My first birthday present from my dear I make missing!!
I really sad..
All my brother fault...He make it missing...
I very angry on him...I no talk to him whole night.. No any response to my brother when he call me ask somethings call me co somethings...

I really crying out...
This my second time i make my present which my dear given missing..
Once is keychain from singapore which is first present for me..
Second is this mickey mp3 which is my first birthday present from my dear...
I really sad..
No mood now..
No energy scold people...No energy eat corn when all my family members eat...No energy play games....
Haiz...
Where are "you"?

What is 缘分?

2009-06-01T21:43:00.001+08:00

What is 缘分?
缘分is......
I also don't know how to answer it in correct way!
But for me I think is all happens in both of people are in same time, all things which both of people like are same, all things buy, eat.....are the same!!!

These all not happen on my boyfriend and I, but all these happens on my class monitor, Tao Wei and me.
Last week, got some classmates said Tao Wei and I got “road”. @.@
They said like this is because of we always together.
When recess time, we no go out eat, study in class together, revise homework together in class.
After school time, I group study with he again and another friend name Sook Peng and Sook Peng upper six friend at school library until 5pm.
After group study, we tuition together again!
Sometime we argue together, laugh together in class!
Today, I know one more thing, his hand phone model also same with me!
Why ????

Why these all not happens on me and boyfriend?
Haiyo!!!
Dear, don't angry!!!

always listen and repeated!!!

2009-05-13T15:57:00.003+08:00

林健辉-我听见有人叫你宝贝

你问我为什么不再给你安慰
在寒风中漫步有家不回
好几天不见面也无所谓
你问我为什么把你的信退回
又把照片撕碎毫不后悔
你问我为了什么开始喝酒
而且每次都喝醉

不要说我做得不对
不要说你永远不会
因为我在无意间听见有人叫你宝贝
不要说这是个误会
请不要在我面前流泪
因为我明明听见有人叫你宝贝
你让他叫你宝贝

海鸣威&泳儿-我的回忆不是我的你的承诺

女：伤心的总会任性灰心的总会用气力
将最好的过去将最多的细碎锁到属於你的眼睛
男：失恋的不够耐性失恋的不信是注定
於最黑的世界於最光的刹那感到属於你的气息

合：即使很多一起过的想起的通通你的
为着是浪漫的爱情
男：通通都可再见但承诺可再听
合：什麽可不变色 Oh baby
当晚与你记住蒲公英今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
女：回忆不再受制於我我承认
合：回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声今晚站在大地自己倾听
男：难道送别你回头总是虔诚
谁能怪我总是太感性
男：失恋的都有惰性失恋的都记住约定
女：当理想的世界当理想的刹那因爱无分你的我的

合：即使很多一起过的想起的通通你的
为着是浪漫的爱情
男：通通都可再见但承诺可再听
合：什麽可不变色 Oh baby
当晚与你记住蒲公英今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
女：回忆不再受制於我我承认
合：回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声今晚站在大地自己倾听
男：难道送别你回头总是虔诚
谁能怪我总是太感性
合：当晚与你记住蒲公英今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
男：回忆不再受制於我我承认
回忆也许你的
合：当晚与你记住流水声今晚站在大地自己倾听
男：难道送别你回头总是虔诚
合：谁能怪我总是太感性

海鸣威-我的回忆不是我的你的承诺(国语版）

乌云遮蔽了天空
窗外又是阴雨时候
伞下的恋人中
不再有你我手牵手
一切过了太久
我们的十字路口
下一站是谁在等候
你我的方向盘
却向着相反的彼岸
终点还是分开
告别你我离开之后
这回忆可以保留
当初那美好的感动
你说你记住了
不为彼此难过
过各自的生活
oh baby
你答应我的我都记得
但是你却忘了你的承诺
不是说好彼此都不再联络
谁都别再犯错
是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择
我走了以后
你要好好生活
不要想我
也别再哭了

我们的十字路口
下一站是谁在等候
你我的方向盘
却向着相反的彼岸
终点还是分开
告别你我离开之后
这回忆可以保留
当初那美好的感动
你说你记住了
不为彼此难过
过各自的生活
oh baby
你答应我的我都记得
但是你却忘了你的承诺
不是说好彼此都不再联络
谁都别再犯错
是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择
我走了以后
你要好好生活
不要想我
也别再

你答应我的我都记得
但是你却忘了你的承诺
不是说好彼此都不再联络
谁都别再犯错
是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择
我走了以后
你要好好生活
不要想我
也别再哭了

I very like these three song.. always listen and repeat!

Start Study Form Six in Sam Tet

2009-05-13T15:21:00.005+08:00

Long time no write my blog...
Paiseh...

Today the Sixth Form committee give all lower six student in class..
And I choose in Form Six Physics Class because I like math n no other choices for me(biology).
Lastly I in 6RF4..

When We "climb" to third floor, although that class have good "fengshui" and very cold, we need always "climb" up and down...
Haiz....
First we in the class, we clean the dirty with many rubbish paper n dust classroom.
Then our class teacher choose monitor..
Before that teacher ask all student, who be monitor before then got two boy become before..
I'm very not luck, Chi San say my name out..
So I'm become vice loh..
Got two asistant monitor..
Because I forced by them, so when teacher ask who want be treasurer then i call Mee Yian....
Haha...

Very bad happen that is my cousin,biao ge also same class with me....
Haiz...
Primary school until now I always lose to him the UPSR, PMR and also SPM...
I think the STPM also lose........
Haiz....
very bad!!!
But O.K. lah...same class again...can study and learn together...

Hope start a new school n form can change a little bit my luck!

Play Play Play!

2009-05-05T17:26:00.003+08:00

手拖手

Hehe..jealous o!

Sweet couple

Jie, Ting And Wendy

They do what?

Me And Wendy
Apa Hal?

Wendy And Ting

Me and Wendy again

Wendy And Yi Cong

Really happy all the day!

Sushi King then K-Box then eat again at MP!

Really alway go PArade sure go KBox...

So Friday go E-Box with my Dear.Muakz...and frenz!

How many times I need to fail again?

2009-04-10T22:07:00.003+08:00

Today morning I take undang test after my breakfast,

then register it and straight go in take the undang test.

I do it carefully and slowly with mind clearly and without any distrubing and noise...

I double checking all my question and answer!

But I'm don't have fully confidence all my answer is correct.

Lastly My time remain 2 minutes and 27seconds...

Lastly I press keputusan...

When I see my overall result...

At that time, I really can't believe with my eyes.

My feeling very sad...

My mood very down and down until my tears also come out....

After take undang test, back home, bath do housework then go work...

When I'm working, all staff which know me today take test asked me...

I said the truth to them....

They all ask me no study ah? Why fail again!!!!!!!

I keep listening their word which really hurt me!!!!

I cry out when I work time!!!

I really no mood to take test again...
I tell to my cousin book next month undang...

Then they all say only me in all cousin group,I take 4 times still fail the undang!

They all say me is can't concentrate on study because Im busy working..

They all want me stopped my work!!!

I really don't know what I want to do...

If I really stop my work, I need write a letter before one month resign!!!!!

If I stop now my salary will cut down!
I really don't know....

Many things keep distrubing my mind!!!!!

Sad!!!!!

We crying on the night!

2009-04-09T17:10:00.005+08:00

I reli feel sorry to my dear ..
Very sorry!!!
Please forgive me make you so hurt before......
Although time is passed so fast, I also don't think it will make us forget about it!

SORRY!!!!!

At that night, when you say out yours feeling,
I really know last time I really hurt you very strong...
Both of us cry out, tears and nasal discharge also come out !
When we talk in handphone also can know both of us are crying and the stuffed-up noses' sound.

After I hear you say that happen which I make you so sad, hurting your heart.
I also crying because I know I'm wrong.....
Really sorry, darling!

I really falling overfully love on you...
200% love on you, not 100% !
I love you forever, dear!

Big present at April Fool !

2009-04-01T19:15:00.004+08:00

Haiz...
Really big present for me when April Fool..
HAIZ..........................

Today, I off day, no working.
I wake up same time do the same house work.
After having my breakfast roti canai take away from my mother.
Eating and watch Hong Kong movie E.U. last episod.
After finish watch,I go bath n go out have my undang test of 2nd times

First time of last week, I getting 36/50 with studying until 3am at midnight.
Second time of today, I getting 41/50 without any study until burning midnight oil.
But also FAIL.....
Haiz....

My dear really guess correct.
He said me no study sure fail it and he also say later you get the 41 per 50 result then you know...
Choi...
But lastly also 41 ahhhhhhhhh..................

Haiz....
really make me dispointed in this times...
Bad mood today!

Haiz!!!!!!!

BAD MOOD IN WHOLE DAY!

2009-03-31T17:26:00.002+08:00

Now I work at Restaurant MP.5 since from 17th of Disember until now!
I feel abit bore about my work.
Now I only hope that time can pass fast more than I think.
I want start my study,start drive my car, start a new life time, start everything in new!
That really make me feel bored when in work time.

Can I go out freely?
Can I go out play with friends everyday?
Can I make a journey out from Ipoh with my lover?
Can I...... Can I......

After i thinking all which I know that for me is impossible happen,
I started cry out without tears.
I feel that my lifestyle same as jail.
NO freedom, NO freedom and NO freedom!

I need freedom~~

I want do every things which I like without parent permission (not bad things).
But I already that really impossible happen on me!!!!!!!!

Haiz...
Sad~~~~~~

At All my happy memories in Kbox!

2009-03-22T11:55:00.005+08:00

At All my happy memories in Kbox!

The Most Happy Join With My Friends in Parade Kbox

2009-03-20T17:42:00.001+08:00

At the 19th of March, I do't want have work. I'm off on that day.
So I have many free times to do my things.

6:30AM
I wake up early because I have the Undang talk at Tasek Car Centre.
When I reach there, the uncle bring my cousin,Ann and I to a room having our colour test to show we have the colour blind or not.
Then, We having the talk start at 9am until 12pm

12:00PM
Then have a break at canteen eating our lunch.
When we eating in the canteen, we hear the stupid lod lady said:
"I very happy and lucky, I no need drive in and out because my hushand will fetch me to everywhere which I want go."
"I come here having my undang test is worry my husband no need very difficult to go in and out."
"I don't like that all CHILDREN learn car is for play"
That stupid old lady and her friend go away.
After that I laugh out, we laugh she so old then learn car.
Then continue our boring talk in room until 3pm.

3:30PM
The uncle fetch Ann go back then I ask uncle bring to me Parade.
When I reach outside KBOX, I saw all my friends waiting me.
Then we start at nearly 4:00PM sing until 8:30PM
But I early go back already.
We sing in room, take picture for our sweet memories,eat and drink.
Once a time, we finish all my drink early, not enough for all people.
Then someobe said want order the BEER or not?
Oh yeah..
After decided, I phone to the counter then order one bucket (6 bottle) of HEINEKEN
All my friends add ices except my glass.
Only all beer, other mix with ices, so no easy to drunk.
That my third times I drink beer with my friends.

The first time I drink is Chinese New Year time.
Second time is I working in MP restaurant take the first salary, my worker belanja us drink in MP when working time

HEHE....

Happy!! Really happy in the KBOX.
Really enjoy it on the time.

Worry about my future!

2009-03-17T15:51:00.001+08:00

I suddenly feel that I choose teacher course correct or not?
Suitable for me or not?
I feel worry about that....
Because that is for my future, my whole life........

Last time I'm interesting in eletronic and electric
That mean last time I want study about the eletronic and electric enginering course..
But the fees very expensive..
RM30,000++
If I really study this course,maybe after I finish study no job then die....
Waste time, money...
Haiz...
Form 6?
I really don't know..

I get 2 difference comment from my worker.

One is my captain.
He said almost same to me.
He ask me why don't want study the easy to study and easy to get job
Like accountat and business....
But I really no interest on that...

Another one is waiter.
He ask why don't want try make one own business
Easy to earn more money, no need worry the studying things..
He said after you study which you study the course, you really got use that knowledge or the skill which you sget from study?
I really can't answer this question.

Now I headache again...
And worry about My study and my future!

Please Dont Too Sad About The SPM Result.

2009-03-15T17:45:00.003+08:00

To My Dear Friends,

All my friends which just take the SPM result
Please don't too sad about your result although you all not satisfy your result which you already have it.
But these all you seen from your SPM result is before you got study or no study's.
Now you all decide go study form six or college
Then u try your all best to take more better result.
Last time I want all my things in the best one
But lastly I oso lose for my cousin which have 5a1 more than me more and more.
Don't see your bad SPM result again.
If you see again, just have sad and wanna cry feeling only
Sad and Cry out cannot change your result become good.
Sad and Cry out just give you all more "heartache" and always in bad mood.
Then you all wan try to die?
CANNOT......
So still the same sentences.

Don't angry, Be happy, then all in good!

Ok?

Thanks for read my comment to all my dear friends which just take SPM result.

++B_sieW++

SPM Result out!

2009-03-12T22:24:00.004+08:00

My SPM result out jor....

Want know my result, please continue read it and leave comment for me..

Thank you you all!!!

1103 Bahasa Melayu---------------------------5C

1119 Bahasa Inggeris--------------------------6C

1225 Pengetahuan Moral---------------------5C

1249 Sejarah-------------------------------------7D

1449 Mathematics-------------------------------1A

3472 Additional Mathematics-----------------1A

3756 Prinsip Perakaunan----------------------3B

4531 Physics--------------------------------------3B

4541 Chemistry-----------------------------------3B

6351 Bahasa Cina--------------------------------5C

6355 English for Science and Technology-6C

Is it after you see feel my result very bad?

hehe...

But I already try my best jor!!

For I feel ok lah.

Just feel a bit dispointed in physics n chemistry only take 3B..

because I fix it in gred A!!

But ok lah 3B...

Have shock feeling in my sejarah and account...

Because I think my sejarah fail and take 9G back home...Luckly...

and my account I think that i only get gred C or D...

I can get 3B..very lucky jor...

HeHE!!!!

开心的第一天。。

2009-02-26T12:00:00.002+08:00

我挽回成功！

我要改变一下我的一切。。。

包括小气脾气，霸道的语言。。。

我曾经伤害他很深。。。

深到彼此心中有一条疤痕。。

一条伤到很深的疤痕。。。

不过我现在和他在回一起真的很开心。。。

我知道我还爱他。。

所以之前曾经追求我的。。

我都会拿他来比较。。。

比来比去。。。

都是他最好。。

疼我、爱我、关心我。。。

我爱他。。。

直到永远。。

你听到了吗？

I LOVE YOU UNTIL FOREVER。。。。

我想要男友的首位条件。。。

2009-02-25T00:33:00.004+08:00

I really feel boring in single life!
I want a boyfriend...
HaHa!!!
But sure hard to find...
Although have and he very near me, I also can't chase he....
Because...
I want a boyfriend sure have these as basic--

~elder than me (one days younger than me I will feel that...erm..hard to explain the feeling.)
~no smoking (got drink beer nevermind,because i also got drink it.)
~clever than me is better (I mean the study higher than me.)
~have a good background (good family background.)
~rich (medium also can)
~care people (especially is girlfriend)
~handsome (this sure lah, is not u wan ugly boyfriend?)
~don't want terdekut ( but too waste money also can't)

But the first is he want love me!

I don't care anything or other people said me like too straight forward but I.........
I don't know!!!
Haiz, so bad!!

Another 严重 case happen on me again !!

2009-02-22T01:04:00.003+08:00

I feel angry...
The another 严重 case happen on me again!!
This time I really feel very angry on he!!!
He do this kind of things, I really cant forgive he!!!
I angry he know and can see clearly from my face and no replying sms to he!
I angry he know and can see clearly from we work time no talk and no chit chat to he!
Now he say ( this is last time he send a long message for me)

Siew...Pls read my last talking(wrong word-message).I cant talk face to face to u. U oso will very angry when i talking. I see u, now u very scare and hate me. M I very dirty already? I m very shy my self. U hate me never mind. Pls don't scare me. Next time I'll talk u for working only. I wont do any other thing. Pls believe me. I scare one more, u'll stop job(why i is me stop my job that ur false). You don't want see me, I'll move form mp5. Next time never disturb u. Very sorry....
Good nite....

After I read it I didn't reply his message...
because i still angry until now!

I think back yesterday night! !!!

2009-02-17T17:51:00.005+08:00

I feel that realy make me very scare!!!
Yestetday night...
nearly 11.30pm
I alreally finish my work, then all the kitchen staff finish punch their card then wait outside...
After I close account....
I call the captain Soe help me to punch when he at behind punching his card.
Then I keep the money in cash box...
Soe came out from kitchen then i ask got help me to punch or not!!
He said no!
Haiz...
I go back kitchen which alreally close all the light left outside light and insect killer light only, kicthen also very dark!
I take up my card see..

Cheh! The captain Soe alreally help me to punch it...
Haiya, lie me!

Soe stand behind me smile.
Before I want go out, he suddenly hug me from behind!
I suddenly shocks...
I say don't like that, he say nan chit tal(mean i love you in myanmar)
I really shock, then i push he back and go outside!
He tell me don't angry!
I take my handbag then wait outside MP!
After i go back home, I guess he sure will sms me!
I no guess wrongly, he send a message at 12.30am ask me sleep already or not..
Then we smsing until 2.00am after i said to mim i very tired want sleep!

Haiz !!
Don't know is good thing for me or bad thing!

Go back to my school...

2009-02-08T11:24:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I go back to my school to see how my KRS junior change when they having marching at that time.
But when I go there, they like no any response. Wish me also like not eat breakfast and also want say twice times.
After that, another ex-senior which join KRS long time come back, they response very big, wish with big voice, shout out their happiness.
I feel that why they like that, is it I make any false, or I come wrong time to school!
I sudden feel sad, is it really I not respect from them?
I really feel disappointed from them.
I really feel that I’m not important from them, I’m not an ex-senior for them.
I think they don’t have is senior is better have it.
~>.<~ ~>.<~
~>.<~ ~>.<~
~>.<~ ~>.<~
~>.<~ ~>.<~

The day which shock in work

2009-02-06T00:51:00.004+08:00

Haiz...
He really serious on me...
Today he off day, his partner and friend named Bo Bo...
I know something from he...
That is every day after Soe drunk will cry out and said to Bo Bo...
He tell Bo Bo,he serious on his Love...
Bo Bo said he at Myanmar no girlfriend and also busy on working...
Now he come to work at Malaysia almost 5 years..
He said out love me sure is serious...
But i already hurt his heart...
Because i straight forward to tell he...
Haiz....
Now how I to do?

Scare feeling from me!

2009-02-04T16:59:00.007+08:00

Today abit boring...
No customer...
Only two table...
Haiz!!
This few days, I always call the Myanmar boy who chase me do the ice lemon chinese tea for me..
Because last time he work as bartender at Restaurant MP already 3.5 years...
He make the drink really good..
Sweet, not too sour...
enough for the taste...
Nice!!!
Now after he say he love me, do everything and say anythings become straight forwards...
I feel abit scare although nothing is bad for me, all is good, no bully me!
But i feel a little bit scare!
Don't know why!

Why happen this on me?

2009-01-30T10:40:00.005+08:00

Oh...shit!!
Why happen this on me?
I feel that I don't have anything to attract guy, then still have people love me??
I don't know..
He is my captain which work in MP5 restaurant.
He is from Myammar which age 27+.

Yesterday night he say that 3 words to me.

But he not suitable for me, so i straight to say sorry to him.
He feel sad and say please forget about he already said.
Today we still have work together.
Haiyoh..
Sei loh...
I still want continue my work ger leh.
I still want work 5 months more at MP5..
Haiz!!
I just can do is forget about it.
I work as like last time lah.
Do our own things!
That all...

HAPPY niu YEAR!!!!!

2009-01-29T02:19:00.004+08:00

Haha...
I read my frens blog...see very cute word...
Klcc fal down!!!
Me jiu no klcc...
Juz hav airport nia...
Mean all the paper money arrange like airport so big...
Wuakaka...
Im be the banker win many...play blackjack n clock...
Siok when win money...
Chu er me open work....
After that close account edi...
Then boss call me, captain soe and another waiter bobo sit in one table drink white wine which mix with soda water then judi...
Play clock....
The white wine got 35% of alcohol...
Wahsai....
Reli strong...
But nice smell when mixing with other liquid and add few piece of lemon!!!
NICE............
I win many money...
I think got Rm50+ total for 3 days...
BUt my daddy very hebat...
My daddy play blackjack only...be banker......
win my cousin total is RM900+
One day only win RM900+
CRAZY one my daddy....
HaHa!!!!!

Chinese new year!!

2009-01-17T12:44:00.009+08:00

Haha...

I waste much more money on my new year cloths...

These all my new year clothes!!!!

Which is the nicer???

The shoe i waste RM45 buy...

which colour is nice a bit leh?

I take one colour another is my mummy one!!

My new hair style

2009-01-17T11:18:00.009+08:00

I dye my hair since one week++ already...
Many people which floor staff and family said I'm change a lot...
Become more 成熟 already and bring some naughty style, the 斯文 look are mising!!!

Haha...

I spent RM90 for dye and highlight my hair..
The colour is golden in all hair and highlight is red....
The aunty cut hair already have near 20 years...
She cut my hair very fast....
My hair middle is stand!!
So before I go out, I always use gel or cream to make it have a shape...
Hehe.....

Im not kesal in waste RM90 for my hair....

HAHA......

The first blog on 2009

2009-01-17T10:42:00.003+08:00

I think i already long time no viewing and write my blog...
Because of working...

When i open my blog dashboard...I see many new post blog of my friends...
Like xue yin...yi ting...KC.....n my sister !!

Now busy on work at MP5 steamboat which near jusco....I m very happy work on there..
The floor staff and kitchen staff are very kind playfull and no people are bully me is important...hahaha!!!

I take my salary already...
Wah...have many money now!!!haha..i start my work at 14/12....i get my salary which is two week salary..i already got near RM530+
I'm not kesal no go genting work...im just work half month got so much...

HAPPY!!!!!!

Now which is single of I'm very happy.....no any sad, unhappily thing happen on me....
I already no cry long time...We still be friends is better for both of us!!!!
Sorry for telling you this bad news...

I view my friends blog, yiting!!
she go voodoo which is pub &bistro with her cousin n family!!
hehe...I tell u i always go voodoo which is beside my work place.............for giving the foods which is customer order from our restaurant....
Wuakaka.....

Last time my other floor staff take the food go voodoo then the customer pull her wan her drink..but she say we cant drink on working time...the customer want her drink then she no idea drink the beer...then the customer give her tips RM10............
Haiz sad...why me cant drink beer!!!
Hng...I wan train my beer "power" first...

I still noy yet take my undang test and drive test!!!!
when i can drive leh!!!!
haiz sad!!

Now Chinese New Year is near and near......25/1 and 26/1,I just can off , so i cant go taiping...continue work on chinese new year..
But i think i can take many red angpau from customer...
I hear from floor staff and boss said, the customer will give angpau and the money which inside money not few....
Hehe.....which i like money i will choose work is better go taiping for nothing!!!!

Now I congratulate to all my friends and wish u all have a happy and unforgetable chinse new year
get more angpau ohhh...............

Now i work at MP5 steamboat!

2008-12-21T13:16:00.003+08:00

Haha...
Now i work at MP5 steamboat..
Im a cashier and service crew....
I work at MP already one week...
Yesterday I very tired...sudden have many customer come to MP eat...
very busy... my dinner also eat at 9pm...
Haiz...
but I work at there very happy...
other staff also always chit chating...joking...
there also very funny..esplecially is one of the staff which named is Mr Bean..we called he Bobo..
He really like "Mr Bean", always joking....
Haha...
Hope more and more customers come to Restaurant MP5 steamboat to eat and enjoy their lunch, teatime,dinner and supper.....

Attention all ipoh friends!!

2008-12-21T12:57:00.001+08:00

Now Restaurant MP5 steamboat which is behind Jusco is new open are making promosion..

At there is merry go around..

All foods are put on the go round..

At there also got Ala-carte order...

Now ONLY MP5 steamboat is making the promosion...

The promo time is at 12pm-3pm and 10pm-11.30pm got RM9.90+ buffet promo..

U can eat all as u like on the round,soup base is RM1 and the chinese tea is RM1 can refill many times...

TOTAL PER PERSON IS RM11.90+

This promo end at 31 of Discember..

Children which height is between 0.9metre and 1.0 metre the promo price is RM5, but the children is below 0.9 metre is free of charge...

This promo open everyday include saturday and sunday and also at public holiday include X'mas n New Year eve...

If u cant eat at the promo time, u oso can eat at other time,so the price is count per plate..

FASTER COME TO MP5 STEAMBOAT EAT..

Want to know more information, u can online in www.movenpeak.com.my or u can phone this number 05-5463218

I sudden cry out!!!

2008-12-09T16:45:00.004+08:00

Last night, I think back when we happy together, our smsing time and also chating time....
I sudden cry out..
Why?
Is it I really sad and feel deplore?
But I really is it I'm still dreaming?
I'm feel sorry to you...
Can you give me some response...
Now I really feel deplore about when you say that to me...
I did't ask about the reason we want "separate"?
Is it you really feel difficult on our time?
But O.K. loh!
Is Ok!!!!!

今天我们真的分手了！

2008-12-04T20:30:00.001+08:00

今天我们真的分手了！
我们在2912开始我们的恋爱。曾经在255分开过，当时我们在一起都没有超过半年，过后我们又复合。复合后，你的心因为有条疤痕了，总是提起以前曾分开的事，我都很不喜欢、很讨厌！过后事情好像淡了，也没常提起！
过了我的生日，你有送礼物给我，因为礼物很迟才到，我生日都过了三个星期，礼物才到手。不懂什么事，我们都好像一直吵架似，我们彼此都曾哭过、曾流下伤心的泪水。现在我又要去云顶做工，所以我们更加少联络，所以昨晚暗示想分手，长痛不如短痛。但我还是没开口说，就只当没发生过、没暗示过。事情不在我预料之中的事今早你竟然开口对我说：“如果我们再继续下去，我们只有辛苦,不如我们分手！”
当你说分手时，我没有任何的反应，没哭、没流泪。难道我真的是冷血的？我不想挽回这还未过一年的恋情，因为我也觉得很辛苦、很累了。
对不起，给了你一个伤心难忘的恋爱回忆。可能这次是我最后一次的远距离恋爱。
我暂时不想恋爱，也好！自己也少烦一件事情！

Finish My SPM...

2008-12-01T18:02:00.003+08:00

Haha...happy...Finish my SPM liao...
Don't know is happy or what feeling...Because is after exam bore at home, still not yet find a job.
But today I go find near my house, I find a job which is handphone shop(digi) but the salary is RM600 per month only. For me is low compare with my sister work at UO shopping centre is RM3.50 per hour. She work one day 8 hours break one hour,overtime is salary 1.5 time. So I hope I can work at high salary job and I work can count long time also compare with my sister, because she just work at there 5 week only. I work at least 4 month.
If i go there work, tired is sure have because can't sit for rest and maybe transport is problem and the lunch maybe have problem...
But i hope I can work at a high salary....

Special keychain from You!

2008-11-30T14:06:00.006+08:00

I remember this keychain...

Since 10 of February which is chinese new year the fourth day, I meet my boyfriend together at a shopping centre at taiping. At that time, we walk at that shopping centre already twice or third time. So boring, at that time,we just chatting and walk.

At that time, you give this special keychain which you buy at Singapore at Discember, 2007. You always said it is a pig. This keychain is a sleeping girl which wear a sleeping hat. Its eyes are a pair of crystals and its hat also have it.

One day, I go to state library with KahYean, YiTing, KuanFei and CheeKheong from Ipoh Parade. On the way, my pencil box drop down and I pick up it and I don't know the keychain also drop. When I reach the library I saw the keychain is missing and I cry out. I did't go back find it because at outside very hot and long journey from library.

The next day after school, I go back that road which I pass before yesterday and XueYin also accompany me to go and we found back. At that time, I very happy and very thank to XueYin.

Since that happen, I did't not hang it on anywhere adn put it in my room.

Now I think back I felt I very stupid and my boyfriend mother also said me "just a simple keychain, don't care about her safety!"But for is a special keychain and bringing a meaning.
HeHe........

My new MP3---Mickey Mouse MP3

2008-11-27T20:18:00.004+08:00

This is my new MP3. Mickey Mouse MP3....Cute, Fashion,Easy( The Disney Mplayer slogan)

This MP3 is my boyfrriend give me as my birthday present.

Although I receive is at 24/11 and my birthday is at 31/10, I also happy when I receive this cute MP3!

Thanks you, dear! You no need so dispointed and sad because I receive late. I'm already happy you give me this special present.Muakz!!!

When I receive the mickey Mp3, I saw the box mickey very "flower", so i wrap with the A4 colour paper. Then the "flower" box become nice colour box.

Hehe...

Yi TiNg N $Hi0w cHi@n BirtHday pResEnT!

2008-11-16T08:14:00.006+08:00

This both present is want to give two friends which birthday at 18th November. One is given to my best friend, Yi Ting which is present in yellow colour box. And another green colour is given to Shiow Chian.
原本 I'm just give Yi Ting only, 难道 both birthday at the same day and both also my classmate, I'm just given one person only meh.....
Wah...This time my dompet 大出血....
Yi Ting present is a table lamp which is bear shape in brown colour.I cant find purple in colour because Yi Ting like purple colour.
So sorry lah,Yi Ting!
Shiow CHian present is a golden stars photo flame with our dinner night 5S11 our class in skirt photo... I give her this present have a special meaning. This present with stars flame like last time 5S11 decorate our dinner front stage and back stage..The front stage which inside the hall have many colour of stars....The flame just like the stage...
So , don't forget we 曾经辛苦过....努力过....
Friendship forever..And 5S11 is always the best......
HaHaHa!!!!

Taking my important exam now!!!--(SPM)

2008-11-13T23:19:00.007+08:00

Long time didn't write my blog liao because i having my important examination that is SPM.
I think that examination important is the result I take is for my future. I use it to continue study in form 6 or in college. Or i use it to find a temporary job or a full time work in my life time.
Now I'm just finish my malay paper, english paper, history paper which I hate it and sure fail it and my favourite subject mathematics paper.
In my this important exam, i felt that this time not very stress and I feel too relax and I take this exam like school exam only. Is it i too scare or i really don't care about my exam?
But I really hope i can get a better result. Surely I very study hard to get my best result.
No one can do nothing to get best thing !!!

滿准的噢...birthday colour..

2008-11-03T21:43:00.004+08:00

10月24日- 11月11日=白色
＊黑色＊
你樂於接受挑戰，因為你擁有接受挑戰的勇氣。但你並不喜歡改變你自己的生活方式。一旦你落實了一個決定，你會長久地朝著這個方向走。你的愛情也是充滿挑戰和有點與別不同。
＊白色＊
你的人生充滿著夢和理想。你對周遭的事有點漠不關心，容易妒忌。你是較為獨特的一群，有時侯，你心中想法總會比別人高深一點。

My 17th birthday!

2008-11-01T22:27:00.002+08:00

Thanks all my friends.
Thanks their wish and all my friends which give me present..

They help me celebrate my birthday at Fantasy. They book a room celebrate with Sheau Yu who are 30/10 birthday. Wendy don't like she celebrate with me because something..

HAiz...I feel that a small thing then don't make like big thing happen.

I’m very happy and hopefully we all can always friendship forever!!!

Friendship Forever...

But I'm also happy all the day.

At night my family also celebrate with me. They go MP(Moven Peak Restaurant) eat steambot. Their steambot are 1 person 1 bowl. So siok...After that,we go Jaya Jusco play bowling. We 5 person play which is daddy.mummy, my sister,brother and me.We fight with high mark..Haha..Luckily is my mark is the 2nd low mark not me is the lowest..Too bad!!!

I'm very happy because my 17th birthday have many peolpe help to celebrate with me.

Thanks for friends and my family..

Thanks You!!!!

1/11/2008

2008-11-01T22:23:00.001+08:00

Today, my friend Suki want take my boyfriend phone number. She say want find he because she at Subang at that time.
Actually my heart has a little bit sour taste, never mind lah. He just accompany Suki.
Haiz……
I don’t why I have that stupid feeling, maybe I too worry about that kind of thing.
Hehe…… Now I waiting my present which is my boyfriend give. I have a little bit “tidak bersabar” because I always go library very boring without music same as stay at home. Some time I also can’t hear music from pen drive through TV at home. But is O.K. lah.
I’m waiting my MICKEY MOUSE MP3 oh!!
Dear love you oh!! Muakz!!

Boring at whole day!

2008-10-28T20:53:00.003+08:00

Today my sisters' friend who already know my sister thing come to me ask about my sister!!
But i just once my sister friend only .I think i can trust she will not tell to other people or her friend!!
Today so boring at school!! nothing to do at school. Just chatting with friend only. After that i go library. At that i saw my friends, wendy n ah leong!! After that,wendy's friend come also. He teach Wendy math.
HEHE!!
I feel that guy not like form 6 because he not clever woh! BUt i heard from Wendy ,he study at Sam Tet which for me is good school n have many smart student study at there...BUt.....Why??? Hehe...
Is it i think Im clever ?
Why I say like that is Because when he teach Wendy he also have somthing don't know..but I think he already forget jor...!!
Hehe...english literature also have said don't think too successful and don't to show off our clever for someone to see it, they will think you so sombong!! And don't too proud sendiri is clever than other people!
Actually he is O.K. lah, friend call he ,then he say yes then come out but just late abit!!....
HAHA!!!

already find back my sister!!

2008-10-27T19:00:00.001+08:00

We already find back my sister. Yesterday she takes bus goes to taiping. She goes to my grandmother house!
This message is from my uncle. My grandmother’s neighbor ask my mother when my mother phone to ask is it my sister at there.
They ask why alone come to taiping without family. Then my mother tell them and call my grandmum don’t give money to my sister. My sister so brave go to taiping which so far away from ipoh and she just alone!

I started to worry she will go where……….

2008-10-27T10:14:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day my sister run away from house.
Yesterday before dinner time, I sit in front of computer online and my sister is beside me and she call me later hers turn to play computer and online.
Before that, my mother said later don’t want give my sister touch personal computer because after she online, computer detect many small tiny virus from scanning AVG Virus. So my mother make an order don’t let she play computer. So this I don’t go away from computer and I don’t say anything to my sister. Then she say if I don’t give she play then一拍两散。But I also don’t go away from computer’s chair and sit there don’t say anything. She said again after 10 minute if I don’t go away then she will let me know something. Then she straight away goes back to her room.
After 10 minute, she come out her room and said “You really don’t want give me play, then ok!” then she pull the telephone line which is connect to computer modem and telephone then she take away, tile together and take to her room and keep it don’t let us take from her. That we can’t online and she also can’t use computer. My mother says if she later doesn’t give out the wire then my mother will punish her and beat her. But she still doesn’t give it out.
The peperangan antara ahli rumah saya telah bermula!
After my mother, dad and also my aunty playing mahjong, my mother ask again, she still don’t want give us the wire! My mother finds the Rotan and goes to her room start to scold her and beat her. She said loudly to my mother she call my mum out from her room, my mum sure don’t want. Then she take the 衣架 from her cupboard and scold my mum and say it again out from her room. Same it, my mother don’t want go out because she still keep the computer wire. Then my sister start to beat use that衣架 and my mother use Rotan to beat. Then my dad don’t tahan that of thing happen between them, he take the belt go straight to her room and beat. My dad says “say sorry to mother” my sister says she don’t have ant fault and why she want to apologize to my mother. Then my dad use belt to beat her with the strong power.
After 10 minute my dad finish beat my sister, my sister run away from home. My dad calls police from Bercham and Simee. He say want send her to pusat pemulihan better dirogol oleh orang lain. At that time the clock show the time is 8.45p.m.
The clock show the time near 11.00 p.m., my dad start go out find her, before that we already phone sisters’ friend and they say she don’t stay at their home. My dad also call my cousin biao ge and tang ge help my dad go around to find my sister back. But my sister also not yet come back when the time is 12.30am already. Then my dad back and stop finding.
I started to worry she will go where……….

A letter from Singapore!

2008-10-26T15:31:00.000+08:00

Today i just receive a letter from singapore. That letter is from managent development institute of singapore (MDIS).
When i read it, the course that I can and which I 'm intersting is diploma in travel and hospitality management. Duration is 7 semester and the fees is S$5200.00.
For me, i feel that is cheap compare to the INTI College but if I study at singapore sure must live at singapore alone without any friends...
Haiz!!!
But I sure will not study at singapore which is too far from my family and friends!!

SPM is near...

2008-10-25T16:51:00.000+08:00

Now my feeling very pelik because now my feeling is happy or scare or don’t know lah!!!
Now I very blur blur...
SPM is near. 11-11-2008 is my first day starting my final exam in my secondary school and end the examination at 1-12-2008. These date I sure wont forget because that examination also makes decision in my whole life time.
Its decision I want go to continue study or start working. Its also decide I want go to study form 6 or college.
Now I can’t do anything to change that and I too worry about that.
But now I really can do is study hard and hard to improve all my subject. Take a better result in SPM examination, if can take good result is better than better result lah!!

They already din talk long time!

2008-10-25T16:30:00.000+08:00

This few day, in my family happen a lot of thing which I can’t imagine.
I started to worry about much thing, like family.
My sister and my mother didn’t talk with each other long time, near one month! But I still can’t solve it. I really scare they will not talk again. Last Saturday, my mother went out bought loteri and bought something for us to eat. At that time, my sister and my dad not yet came back. Then my brother, my mum and I eat together. After a few minute, my sister and dad also come back. Then I ask my sister want to eat thing which is my mum buy, then she give me response and she said becareful later someone put poison in the food you also don’t know.Washai...She say like that!!!
When she say it I very angry, but I also can’t say anything because they are in “cold fight”. My dad tell me both of them also having bad habits and their “pi qing” also bad.
When they will stop this kind of “cold fight”?
But I think is when ones say sorry just can solve this fight.
Haiz… This stupid of idea sure wont happen on both of them…

My trial examination’s result is out......

2008-10-09T17:55:00.000+08:00

So bad my trial exam!! Haiz... But I already try my best.. These are my mark for every subject and the grad!!

Bahasa Malaysia---------------------------54---6C
Bahasa Cina---------------------------------58---6C
Bahasa Inggeris-----------------------------43---7D
Pendidikan Moral--------------------------56---6C
Sejarah----------------------------------------18---9G
Modern Mathematics----------------------87---1A
Additional mathematics------------------52---6C
Chemistry-------------------------------------62---5C
Physics------------------------------------------65---4B
Prinsip Akaun--------------------------------53---6C
English for Science and Technology------48---7E

Sad because my forecast result.

2008-10-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

Today I’m very sad because my forecast result... Although my result are passing and didn’t have any subject fail yet, I also don’t like my result. Although my result have one A, I also don’t like my result. My result just forty and fifty mark some thing only.
Actually, I have a bit don’t like other people who are get higher mark than me. They all already improve many, including my class monitor who always fails many subjects but I know she is good in math. Now her forecast result is better than me. I feel I’m always good and always take the best result in math but she already exceed my result. Her English, account and other subject also exceed my mark. I can see she put more effort in this forecast exam. I very sad because I can’t take another 3 A’s in add math, physics and chemistry although I take A in math but for me 87% is bad mark. I have many confidences in my physics and add math but I only take grad C. Furthermore, my add math drop from 72% to 52% and my math also from 91% drop to 87%. I’m really sad.
Shiow Chian, my classmate who is good in account. She also get 3 A’s in her math, add math and account. I’m very worry about their results will exceed my results much better. I very scare. I started to scare about that. I worry I will lose anything. I don’t like and hate the feeling of loses. Every people also don’t like lose and wanted win everything. That mean, I’m a “kiasu” people.
Today, English teacher ask at class “who is good in math?” .Everyone say is me. Then teacher call me help her to count the total mark of English and EST. Although it is proud for me, I don’t like that because when my math become badly, none of people will say to you, talk with you and they maybe will go far from me. Then I’m will find a hole to bury my self.
Now, I started to have scare feeling in my future. I started to feel don’t want to study after SPM. Because I want everything is prefect and everything must be in good, the best in everything in my life. I will a decision; maybe I don’t want to continue to study after SPM although forecast result and my SPM result is in good or bad. I’m just wanted to be a part time job worker then I will feel that enough for me in my life.

Why I have this kind of sister?

2008-10-03T17:28:00.000+08:00

I’m sad because my family.. Before that my daddy and mummy quarrelling each other .. At that time, I very scare and crying out in room. My brother also crying beside me in my room! At the midnight, they quarrel very loudly sound. But now both of them already nothing and both of them also talking to each other. Happily and laugh out loudly together.
Today, I think no! Because my sister quarrel again with my mother again. This time my sister quarrel with y mother very “big”. This morning she quarrel, she say she don’t want do housework and don’t want to help my mother do any thing. She also say she swear “I’m XXX(my sister) don’t want be XXX(my mother) daughter already.” Them my mum call her go pray in front of God. Then she throw her mop which is he do half way mopping and straight go in front of God and say out loudly. Them run to her room!
I’m very scare, I’m very scare I loss my younger sister… But when they quarreling, I didn’t have any response. I didn’t cry and sad and I didn’t to advise them because I feel this is my sister’s fault. Then my mother punishs my sister with cane. My sister cry and cry. But I also didn’t to stop them!! I sudden felt my self so “cool”!
I don’t know why I became like that. Maybe I agree my mother said that. I’m became a daughter is respect parent and help parent to ligten their load. But my sister didn’t. I scare my sister will became bad and stubborn and not respectfully.
I am scare and sad why I have like that kind of sister. Why?

wake up at midnight to write a blog without permission!!

2008-10-01T03:26:00.000+08:00

Yertesday he did call me at night! He have a 习惯, that is every day before I sleep sure have a night call... But yesterday he didn't have...Because he is at cyber cafe!不方便 to call me at there....
Actually I don knw why I don't like people go cyber cafe because at there for me is a place for people to smoke, to join friends, to play computer games, to chat loudly and more! So i didn't go in before....
I have a little bit 不爽的心情 because he didn't call me yesterday because he is in cyber cafe... But nevermind lah!! HE wanted to play games and also chatting with his friends who is already long time didn't have meet each other... But don't let me know he have a smoke at there.... Don't let me kow he at there join smoker.... I'm not bloking he make friends but all people know if you join with smoker, your healthy also will affected! His healthy alredy not good, I'm scare about his any thing! Hopefully this all thing will not come true....
When say about dreams coming true, he also say he wanted paktor with me and go whole of world to play... Haha.... Who don't want? If have chances I sure wanted to go with you!

Haiz!!!

2008-09-30T14:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I’m cry when I chatting with my boyfriend! I cry because I already hurt my boyfriend’s heart. I hurt him last time when I said to him “separate” that time… I’m crying out…. I feel very kesal when last time I said “separate”… My heart was hurt and sad now.i don’t know why I kesal ..

Actually I don’t want tell him, but I hear he always say that parut make him so pain.. That parut of his heart was can’t disappear from his heart… I don’t know what I can do? Then I tell him straight away…I said I kesal is that time I tell you want “separate” or together back once again make him scare and always say scare hurt again kesal…

I don’t know…. I realy don’t know what cani do to make him? I very hate he always said he on love no confidence and always said that parut make him very scare, scare will happen once again…

Haiz!!!

爱情道理

2008-09-30T14:03:00.001+08:00

Today, my mother chat with me afternoon. She say when you do every thing don’t too serious. Then I say “Ehm, like what? Give me an example.”.. Then she say she feel very 可怜when every people do something very seriously…

I feel that 奇怪,why she suddenly said that kind of thing. Then I also said give me some example, like what…then she told me like love. Don’t too seriously in love , because it will make you loss something. Like if you in love seriously, your boyfriend will felt he is important for me, then he wil felt you is can’t loss him, then you will let him very you is not “expensive” and is cheap.

Oh!!!原来my mother 兜那么大的圈is tell me is 爱情道理. And after that she also tell me don’t always say you have boyfriend or you already in the relationship or you got boyfriend already… because it also make you 吃亏.. She say you must 公平的对待全部人,even through is男朋友,男性朋友 or 女性朋友! All also must fare and same…

After that I heard from my mother’s爱情道理, I felt that my mum said also true and I feel yes.. But when she say don’t too seriously, I didn’t give any response for hers. Because if I don’t serious mean I play my love…But if serious it will make me loss something , then what can I do?

Chinese Debate Society farewell and K-box

2008-09-28T12:09:00.000+08:00

Saturday, this my Chinese Debate Society farewell party! Im very surprice. Im very happy that day! My junior "waste" their study time to celebrate our farewell..At that day, Shu Tien's mother prepare spagatti and jelly for our farewell party!Nicole also prepare fried nugget,fried hotdog,fried big fishball ang aslo many types of juices..Furthermore, Yee Sin also buy a coffee favourite's cake!That coffee cake for me is too sweet...Hehe..I don't like food which is too sweet.Haha!!!
After my farewell when end at 10.00 morning,i wait until near 11 o'clockwith my sister and friend,Nicole.Then we walk to near my school's shopping centre,Ipoh Parade!We walk there at 11.15am.Then go around the parade,until my boyfriend,Kok Cheng take bus went to Ipoh Parade..He reach to Parade at 12.30 p.m.Then we sit at Marybrown there wait Kok Cheng...
When my darling come to parade,He give a ring!At the ring got word"love you i'm very happy"hehe..i also give him two keychain...one is horoscope keychain one is I love you forever which half words.. HeHe...because another half is my wan..then we wait my friends,Suki Yong,Xue Yin, Yi Ting,Yi Ting brother,Yi Ting cousin,Kah yean,Kah Yean friend,Kwan Ning!Then we go K-box singing.That is my first time i go to K-box with my friends and my dear!That day is my friends Kah Yean's birthday..After that,when my clock show 4.20pm ,that mean my K-box"journey" is end!When at K-box,I very happy because I can stay with my dear！hehe..at that time...we eat, we sing,we drink,we play...HAPPY!!!!
Say true..I do not why i realy dont like waste my dear's money!But every time when i see what thing i like sure will think Kok Cheng..Is it mean 日有所思，夜有所梦?But also think my purse...haiz..but when i tell to him,he always say buy for me!this i realy dont like..because his money mean his mother money..but he always say"haiya my mother give me jor that mean my money loh,dont worry"! I dont like！！！！but after that i will think haiz why i dont let he buy for me, i will not waste my money, and also got that thing i want!...Haiz!!!Me always like that！my fikiran always like that！So矛盾...

短暂的九天假期！

2008-09-27T22:31:00.001+08:00

短暂的九天假期！哈芝节（马来人的新年）的来临，所以我又要闷一个星期多。或许我不会觉得闷，因为不息的功课堆积累累。多篇的作文要写，审视还要温习我的化学，作中四的化学笔记给朋友。

坏习惯

2008-09-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

最近，我都和朋友不和，都一直吵架。因为我不喜欢她的态度、行为。但在这短短的五天时间。我都不懂自己在做什么？一直就自己想逗回她开心，我觉得自己也有点过分。不过，又过了一阵子，我又想明明就是她对我的态度不佳，自己何必对她好呢！
星期六就是他生日，我原本打算送大份的礼物给她，逗回她开心，不懂什么原因，又弄到我想送回小份的礼物。今天她和朋友叫我星期六去卡拉OK，我答应了他们。我又不想失礼，就送回大份的礼物。
一瞬间，觉得自己一时一样。这就是没有主见的我！有时，我很讨厌自己这一点的。但…！唉…算了吧！从不改的坏习惯！

Want be a what in future?

2008-09-19T17:08:00.002+08:00

Can who tell me and who are wanted to be engineering..Can some body give me some tips..But want be a engineering, I hear from my teacher this job is for boys, girls is not suitable..But i really like want to be engineering and is about electronics and electrical like repair computer hardware..Because that my interesting...
But I also think be a hardware engineering also good for future..Can I take both courses in college..I finish saw the inti college at subang jaya from website, when I saw the fees,wah!!! So expensive!!RM23,760
I like math..especially additional mathematics..People say me:"Is it u crazy? Why always like that kind difficult thing".But for me is good, have interest to think more, let the brain "move" more,so the brain will not "die"!!SWEAT....=_='''
Hehe..say true ..i have a bit confuse my self..Want be teacher teach math or add math? Or want be engineering leh?Haiz..

WANT BE A WHAT IN FUTURE ?????

My first day!

2008-09-19T17:08:00.000+08:00

today,im very sad because i already make my friend cry..i have a bit kesal! but now my feeling realy do not..i also cant , do no how say now my feeling..
我为了朋友愿意牺牲任何的东西，牺牲前来买礼物来逗回朋友的欢心，我宁愿。
但为什么我的友谊从小学到中学，我都成为中间人？我都是迁就朋友的人？我有点不甘心。但一些都是上天的安排。
hw to change all tis thing..i very difficult to make a decision..i very矛盾..i reli wan some one can help me to solve tis problem..but is cant,,imposible!
朋友是要一心一意的对待。我已付出全真心，但依然没有人懂。我曾经想过不要任何的朋友，甚至爱情。我宁可放弃，但我这会伤到身边的人。我不能太自私、不能只顾自己。我头开始痛了。

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