Sad, Down, Moody

How such a long time i dint online already?

ERR~~~~ don't know...

I really want to share this few week what already happen on my life...

Too much... until now still don't have the ending.

when the "happen" need to solve it?

Bila..... When.....

HAPPY TIGER NEW YEAR

New Year is Coming~~
Later I need to back home early to clean house alone!!!!!
Seih loh..
Sure tired until die, plus I'm having ...........
Haiz....
Tired plus bleeding plus sweating....

At house, lipat baju, sapu lantai, mop lantai, hang the new year decoration outside the house, clean window, iron the clothes..... sei loh........
Im alone how to finish it at one night.
My daddy, mummy, and sister working, my brother still at school, left me....
My handphone nearly no credit...
I think only the "Music" accompany me.
Music, hi-fi, amplifier, TV.....
Haiz......

But lasty I still need to wish All My friends...
HAPPY TIGER NEW YEAR!!!

After had a talk to teacher

Yesterday, I go found my class teacher to ask about change class.
Before that, I don't think is possible to have the chance to change it, but at least asked.
The answer still the same. NO!
The reason is because out STPM angka giliran is fixed.
Haiz.....Never mind lah. Keep the same in now.

Then teacher ask me to sit down had a talk.
I already felt that teacher wanted to ask about what.

"Bee Siew, you change a lot compare to last year."
"Ya, in study, I changed a lot, because some 'forces' to push me in front!"
"You mean HE?"
"Not only HE, acually whole gang make me wanted to study hard. Then I need to study hard, SO that I'm no lose to them."
"Actually I can see clearly you and HE and the gang had a gap."
"I also don't know that. He said 'we can't be couple, we still be friends', but I can't see that, because no talk to each other."
"Why you don't try to talk with him?"
"I'm girl, don't wanted to the first."
"......"
"Actually I also don't know what things happen between of us to have that gap.Fine. Now I'm just wanted to study hard only."

Above that dialog had edited. Some too private can't share to us. Sorry.

But after I talk with teacher, I'm blurring. But I still don't know how to solve it.
Blur~~Blur~~ and Blur~~

Miss Feeling

Two days….

No Sms....

Because my handphone no credits.

RM0.00~~~~~~~~~~

Pitynya...

Miss you.......

I think maybe when Chinese New Year, I'll be go P.Pangkor to take more angpau.

The first day of New Year, I go Malim Nawar, then Kampar.

Second day, stay at Ipoh my grandmum house.

Third day, go taiping.

MAybe fifth day just go Lumut.

Then Friday, go Parade gather with my best friends....

Kaka......

But all still don't know yet.

Still not confirm yet.

No Title

I felt that I'm become bad girl.
I wanna YOU all dead soon..

Just express it

Open school how many days?
14 days......
Stress in Upper Six?
No~~~
Relax In Upper Six Also?
Also NO~~~
Err... how to express my feeling now ?
Emn~~~ Don't know...

Homework?
Finish...
Tuition and coco timetable?
Already arrange properly..
Then any things do?
Err... don't know again....

Now i started back "it" again....
No lie, honest....
First time go far alone by bus.
A bit scare..
But i get "it" back....

Maybe someone understand I say what,
But maybe someone don't understand also.

I'm just nothings to do.
Post some nonsense here.
Hehe....

My 1st F6 WORST result

Today, I receive all my first examination subjects' result.
Worst worst and worst.
Now I really believe my senior said:"We not count A's, is count PASS."
Haiz... so sad but I already know my result will very bad.

Below is my BAD, WORST result.

General paper---45
Physics----------20
Chemistry-------40
Mathematics----39
MUET----------24
TOTAL: >>>>>168

Is it bad? Only pass 2 subjects. So bad.

Finish my examination

I really don’t what feeling I have now……

Now I just finish my exam, I can feel that I really bad on my first Form 6 examination.

I no try before my english essay write 2 paragraph.

Last time, although the title is hard, I sure will write something and try to don’t leave it blank.

But now I really leave it blank.

After my MUET exam, I tell my classmates, all of them not believe I only write like that.

I also can’t believe I really do such things.

Before that, my classmates like plan how to cheat.

I really feel sad n disappointed when they said like that.

They still said no cheat is impossible.

First day is test PA (general paper), quite important subject just like Malay in SPM.

And also chemistry.

PA I die jor, no study at all, but luckily is multiple choice question and got graph helped me, if not dead again.

Second day is test mathematics and physics.

Both subject are my favourite, but I really not enough time to finish and some question really difficult.

My classmates ask me: “You know how to do? I saw you write non-stop?”

“ I don’t have enough time to do ah! Haiz.. ”

“ Har~ we still have time to sleep because don’t know how to do then better sleep.”

At that second day, I know one thing that really make me sad, that is why he really cheat.

If really don’t how to do the maths then leave blank, why want to cheat, and my friend also let him copy.

Now got one week holiday, I really need do my own note last time Form 5.

Physics, Chemistry, mathematics and my Pengajian Am general paper.

I really tired, I need a small nap, only one day, Sunday.

Then Monday start my study now.

Bee Siew woh, how can’t do it..(this from my friend Reachel Ng said)

Thanks my friends and teachers to support and full considence on me.

My "schdule"

Long time nno updated my blog..
Because every day i went home nearly 6pm jor...
so left very less time to online to write my blog...sorry to my friends....

Now my "schedule " for every day is fully "book".
Monday
7.30am-3.40pm class study
5.30pm-7.30pm chemistry tuition
8.00pm reach home

Tuesday
7.30am-3.40pm class study
4.30pm-6.30pm physics tuition
7.30pm reach home

Wednesday
7.30am-3.40pm class study
3.40pm-5.30pm self study at school library
6.30pm reach home

Thursday
7.30am-1.05pm class study
1.30pm-3.30pm co-curiculum
5.30pm-7.30pm chemistry tuition
8.00pm reach home

Friday
7.30am-1.05pm class study
1.05pm-4.00pm co-curiculum
4.00pm-5.30pm self study at school library


These all schedule...
Is it very fully book leh?
So homework done oso dun have enough time to do revision...
So how to prepare my exam which coming soon...
haiz.... so cham..

4/7/2009

Today is Saturday.
Although is Saturday, I still need to go to school because attendance is compulsory.
Hari Anugerah is I attend the first activity in Sam Tet School.

Comment on Hari Anugerah:
Firstly is the band performance. Quite good.
Secondly, “speeching”…bored until die.
Then dance club performance—handkerchief dance.
Next is Tai Chi performance. Wah… very nice...
Then start giving the price to student who having good result. I saw many Leng Chai wear forma..

Then 9.40am, I go duty the computer club…
When start duty, very boring because no “business”. After a while, busy until no time to go toilet, busy until forget the time.

After that, I go parade dating with my dear.
Actually I want watch movie at cinema, but the time are no suitable.
Then we change to KBOX.
2 people in room. Then we got many private & confidential.
Haha…
Then “happying” and “sweeting” and “XXX” !!!
The “XXX” only me n dear know this what..
Dear!! Muakz… love you so much!!!

K^.^C
[LoV3][4eVe]
B^.^S

小南国大饭店

星期日，我一家人到我家附近的店——小南国大饭店，享用我们的晚餐。

我们点了瓦煲咖哩鱼片、罗汉斋、招牌北京豆腐、奶油撒尿虾和一壶独树香茶。

菜肴不错，我爸和婆婆一直不停赞决那瓦煲咖哩鱼片，很好吃！

我和我妹妹吃了很多不同的菇，有冬菇、草菇、金针菇……很美味。

晚餐吃完了……付钱时候到了！

咦，这样便宜的？

*瓦煲咖哩鱼片-----RM18

*罗汉斋--------------RM12

*招牌北京豆腐-----RM 8

*奶油撒尿虾--------RM12

哈哈……下次晚餐一定再来吃！一定再点我爸挚爱的瓦煲咖哩鱼片。

I'm so happy on this answer from you

I hear my boyfriend my dear friends break already.

What happen on them? They just start their love? Why so fast break?

What’s wrong on them? Is it boy’s fault or girl’s fault?

But I’m just know from my dear is girl tell break to boy!

Haiz….

So sad on it!

Some friends ask me, why my boyfriend and I’s love relationship still can “tahan” so long time?

I answer I also don’t why!

This question I ask back to my dear through Skype with videocall.

He answer me these:

Because I love you!

That is my real answer.

You also know lah! Before these were many things happen! That is not happy!

But when I think when alone

I think that I love you, and then I can accept what thing was happen

Something I was not happy that was happen

But not happy then can do what

I love you and I want you

Then I just keep it in heart and forget it

I always hope that you treat me good and when I happy and I can forget what thing has happen before

You say correct

You have done many things that make me sad

But I love u

So I choose to forget it and think of why you will like tat

And I will think because is me not good enough

So I try my best to do all the thing and make u happy

That’s why we can together till now.

This is my answer.

After I hear his answer, I straight close our video call and close my web camera!

I start crying out with my tear.

I really cry because I really happy and “gan dong” about that!

Thank you, dear!

I also love you so much!

Where my Mickey Mouse MP3?

I really don't know at where it placed?
Inside my room? Inside my brother room? Inside my parent room?
Or inside my living room? Inside my kitchen?
After I found...
Haiz...Also make me dispointed...

I can't found it...
That really a special thing...
My first birthday present from my dear I make missing!!
I really sad..
All my brother fault...He make it missing...
I very angry on him...I no talk to him whole night.. No any response to my brother when he call me ask somethings call me co somethings...

I really crying out...
This my second time i make my present which my dear given missing..
Once is keychain from singapore which is first present for me..
Second is this mickey mp3 which is my first birthday present from my dear...
I really sad..
No mood now..
No energy scold people...No energy eat corn when all my family members eat...No energy play games....
Haiz...
Where are "you"?

What is 缘分?

What is 缘分?
缘分is......
I also don't know how to answer it in correct way!
But for me I think is all happens in both of people are in same time, all things which both of people like are same, all things buy, eat.....are the same!!!

These all not happen on my boyfriend and I, but all these happens on my class monitor, Tao Wei and me.
Last week, got some classmates said Tao Wei and I got “road”. @.@
They said like this is because of we always together.
When recess time, we no go out eat, study in class together, revise homework together in class.
After school time, I group study with he again and another friend name Sook Peng and Sook Peng upper six friend at school library until 5pm.
After group study, we tuition together again!
Sometime we argue together, laugh together in class!
Today, I know one more thing, his hand phone model also same with me!
Why ????

Why these all not happens on me and boyfriend?
Haiyo!!!
Dear, don't angry!!!

always listen and repeated!!!

林健辉-我听见有人叫你宝贝

你问我为什么 不再给你安慰
在寒风中漫步有家不回
好几天不见面也无所谓
你问我为什么 把你的信退回
又把照片撕碎毫不后悔
你问我为了什么 开始喝酒
而且每次都喝醉

不要说我做得不对
不要说你永远不会
因为我在无意间听见有人叫你宝贝
不要说这是个误会
请不要在我面前流泪
因为我明明听见有人叫你宝贝
你让他叫你 宝贝

海鸣威&泳儿-我的回忆不是我的 你的承诺

女：伤心的总会任性 灰心的总会用气力
将最好的过去 将最多的细碎 锁到属於你的眼睛
男：失恋的不够耐性 失恋的不信是注定
於最黑的世界 於最光的刹那 感到属於你的气息

合：即使很多一起过的 想起的通通你的
为着是浪漫的爱情
男：通通都可再见 但承诺可再听
合：什麽可不变色 Oh baby
当晚与你记住蒲公英 今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
女：回忆不再受制於我 我承认
合：回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声 今晚站在大地自己倾听
男：难道送别你 回头总是虔诚
谁能怪我 总是太感性
男：失恋的都有惰性 失恋的都记住约定
女：当理想的世界 当理想的刹那 因爱 无分你的我的

合：即使很多一起过的 想起的通通你的
为着是浪漫的爱情
男：通通都可再见 但承诺可再听
合：什麽可不变色 Oh baby
当晚与你记住蒲公英 今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
女：回忆不再受制於我 我承认
合：回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声 今晚站在大地自己倾听
男：难道送别你 回头总是虔诚
谁能怪我 总是太感性
合：当晚与你记住蒲公英 今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
男：回忆不再受制於我 我承认
回忆也许你的
合：当晚与你记住流水声 今晚站在大地自己倾听
男：难道送别你 回头总是虔诚
合：谁能怪我 总是太感性

海鸣威-我的回忆不是我的 你的承诺(国语版）

乌云遮蔽了天空
窗外又是阴雨时候
伞下的恋人中
不再有你我手牵手
一切过了太久
我们的十字路口
下一站是谁在等候
你我的方向盘
却向着相反的彼岸
终点还是分开
告别你我离开之后
这回忆可以保留
当初那美好的感动
你说你记住了
不为彼此难过
过各自的生活
oh baby
你答应我的我都记得
但是你却忘了你的承诺
不是说好彼此都不再联络
谁都别再犯错
是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择
我走了以后
你要好好生活
不要想我
也别再哭了

我们的十字路口
下一站是谁在等候
你我的方向盘
却向着相反的彼岸
终点还是分开
告别你我离开之后
这回忆可以保留
当初那美好的感动
你说你记住了
不为彼此难过
过各自的生活
oh baby
你答应我的我都记得
但是你却忘了你的承诺
不是说好彼此都不再联络
谁都别再犯错
是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择
我走了以后
你要好好生活
不要想我
也别再

你答应我的我都记得
但是你却忘了你的承诺
不是说好彼此都不再联络
谁都别再犯错
是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择
我走了以后
你要好好生活
不要想我
也别再哭了

I very like these three song.. always listen and repeat!

Start Study Form Six in Sam Tet

Long time no write my blog...
Paiseh...

Today the Sixth Form committee give all lower six student in class..
And I choose in Form Six Physics Class because I like math n no other choices for me(biology).
Lastly I in 6RF4..

When We "climb" to third floor, although that class have good "fengshui" and very cold, we need always "climb" up and down...
Haiz....
First we in the class, we clean the dirty with many rubbish paper n dust classroom.
Then our class teacher choose monitor..
Before that teacher ask all student, who be monitor before then got two boy become before..
I'm very not luck, Chi San say my name out..
So I'm become vice loh..
Got two asistant monitor..
Because I forced by them, so when teacher ask who want be treasurer then i call Mee Yian....
Haha...

Very bad happen that is my cousin,biao ge also same class with me....
Haiz...
Primary school until now I always lose to him the UPSR, PMR and also SPM...
I think the STPM also lose........
Haiz....
very bad!!!
But O.K. lah...same class again...can study and learn together...

Hope start a new school n form can change a little bit my luck!

Play Play Play!

手拖手

Hehe..jealous o!

Sweet couple

Jie, Ting And Wendy

They do what?

Me And Wendy
Apa Hal?

Wendy And Ting

Me and Wendy again

Wendy And Yi Cong

Really happy all the day!

Sushi King then K-Box then eat again at MP!

Really alway go PArade sure go KBox...

So Friday go E-Box with my Dear.Muakz...and frenz!

How many times I need to fail again?

Today morning I take undang test after my breakfast,

then register it and straight go in take the undang test.

I do it carefully and slowly with mind clearly and without any distrubing and noise...

I double checking all my question and answer!

But I'm don't have fully confidence all my answer is correct.

Lastly My time remain 2 minutes and 27seconds...

Lastly I press keputusan...

When I see my overall result...

At that time, I really can't believe with my eyes.

My feeling very sad...

My mood very down and down until my tears also come out....

After take undang test, back home, bath do housework then go work...

When I'm working, all staff which know me today take test asked me...

I said the truth to them....

They all ask me no study ah? Why fail again!!!!!!!

I keep listening their word which really hurt me!!!!

I cry out when I work time!!!

I really no mood to take test again...
I tell to my cousin book next month undang...

Then they all say only me in all cousin group,I take 4 times still fail the undang!

They all say me is can't concentrate on study because Im busy working..

They all want me stopped my work!!!

I really don't know what I want to do...

If I really stop my work, I need write a letter before one month resign!!!!!

If I stop now my salary will cut down!
I really don't know....

Many things keep distrubing my mind!!!!!

Sad!!!!!

We crying on the night!

I reli feel sorry to my dear ..
Very sorry!!!
Please forgive me make you so hurt before......
Although time is passed so fast, I also don't think it will make us forget about it!

SORRY!!!!!

At that night, when you say out yours feeling,
I really know last time I really hurt you very strong...
Both of us cry out, tears and nasal discharge also come out !
When we talk in handphone also can know both of us are crying and the stuffed-up noses' sound.

After I hear you say that happen which I make you so sad, hurting your heart.
I also crying because I know I'm wrong.....
Really sorry, darling!

I really falling overfully love on you...
200% love on you, not 100% !
I love you forever, dear!

Big present at April Fool !

Haiz...
Really big present for me when April Fool..
HAIZ..........................

Today, I off day, no working.
I wake up same time do the same house work.
After having my breakfast roti canai take away from my mother.
Eating and watch Hong Kong movie E.U. last episod.
After finish watch,I go bath n go out have my undang test of 2nd times

First time of last week, I getting 36/50 with studying until 3am at midnight.
Second time of today, I getting 41/50 without any study until burning midnight oil.
But also FAIL.....
Haiz....

My dear really guess correct.
He said me no study sure fail it and he also say later you get the 41 per 50 result then you know...
Choi...
But lastly also 41 ahhhhhhhhh..................

Haiz....
really make me dispointed in this times...
Bad mood today!

Haiz!!!!!!!