How many times I need to fail again?

Today morning I take undang test after my breakfast,

then register it and straight go in take the undang test.

I do it carefully and slowly with mind clearly and without any distrubing and noise...

I double checking all my question and answer!

But I'm don't have fully confidence all my answer is correct.

Lastly My time remain 2 minutes and 27seconds...

Lastly I press keputusan...

When I see my overall result...

At that time, I really can't believe with my eyes.

My feeling very sad...

My mood very down and down until my tears also come out....

After take undang test, back home, bath do housework then go work...

When I'm working, all staff which know me today take test asked me...

I said the truth to them....

They all ask me no study ah? Why fail again!!!!!!!

I keep listening their word which really hurt me!!!!

I cry out when I work time!!!

I really no mood to take test again...
I tell to my cousin book next month undang...

Then they all say only me in all cousin group,I take 4 times still fail the undang!

They all say me is can't concentrate on study because Im busy working..

They all want me stopped my work!!!

I really don't know what I want to do...

If I really stop my work, I need write a letter before one month resign!!!!!

If I stop now my salary will cut down!
I really don't know....

Many things keep distrubing my mind!!!!!

Sad!!!!!

We crying on the night!

I reli feel sorry to my dear ..
Very sorry!!!
Please forgive me make you so hurt before......
Although time is passed so fast, I also don't think it will make us forget about it!

SORRY!!!!!

At that night, when you say out yours feeling,
I really know last time I really hurt you very strong...
Both of us cry out, tears and nasal discharge also come out !
When we talk in handphone also can know both of us are crying and the stuffed-up noses' sound.

After I hear you say that happen which I make you so sad, hurting your heart.
I also crying because I know I'm wrong.....
Really sorry, darling!

I really falling overfully love on you...
200% love on you, not 100% !
I love you forever, dear!

Big present at April Fool !

Haiz...
Really big present for me when April Fool..
HAIZ..........................

Today, I off day, no working.
I wake up same time do the same house work.
After having my breakfast roti canai take away from my mother.
Eating and watch Hong Kong movie E.U. last episod.
After finish watch,I go bath n go out have my undang test of 2nd times

First time of last week, I getting 36/50 with studying until 3am at midnight.
Second time of today, I getting 41/50 without any study until burning midnight oil.
But also FAIL.....
Haiz....

My dear really guess correct.
He said me no study sure fail it and he also say later you get the 41 per 50 result then you know...
Choi...
But lastly also 41 ahhhhhhhhh..................

Haiz....
really make me dispointed in this times...
Bad mood today!

Haiz!!!!!!!

BAD MOOD IN WHOLE DAY!

Now I work at Restaurant MP.5 since from 17th of Disember until now!
I feel abit bore about my work.
Now I only hope that time can pass fast more than I think.
I want start my study,start drive my car, start a new life time, start everything in new!
That really make me feel bored when in work time.

Can I go out freely?
Can I go out play with friends everyday?
Can I make a journey out from Ipoh with my lover?
Can I...... Can I......

After i thinking all which I know that for me is impossible happen,
I started cry out without tears.
I feel that my lifestyle same as jail.
NO freedom, NO freedom and NO freedom!

I need freedom~~

I want do every things which I like without parent permission (not bad things).
But I already that really impossible happen on me!!!!!!!!

Haiz...
Sad~~~~~~

At All my happy memories in Kbox!

At All my happy memories in Kbox!

The Most Happy Join With My Friends in Parade Kbox

At the 19th of March, I do't want have work. I'm off on that day.
So I have many free times to do my things.

6:30AM
I wake up early because I have the Undang talk at Tasek Car Centre.
When I reach there, the uncle bring my cousin,Ann and I to a room having our colour test to show we have the colour blind or not.
Then, We having the talk start at 9am until 12pm

12:00PM
Then have a break at canteen eating our lunch.
When we eating in the canteen, we hear the stupid lod lady said:
"I very happy and lucky, I no need drive in and out because my hushand will fetch me to everywhere which I want go."
"I come here having my undang test is worry my husband no need very difficult to go in and out."
"I don't like that all CHILDREN learn car is for play"
That stupid old lady and her friend go away.
After that I laugh out, we laugh she so old then learn car.
Then continue our boring talk in room until 3pm.

3:30PM
The uncle fetch Ann go back then I ask uncle bring to me Parade.
When I reach outside KBOX, I saw all my friends waiting me.
Then we start at nearly 4:00PM sing until 8:30PM
But I early go back already.
We sing in room, take picture for our sweet memories,eat and drink.
Once a time, we finish all my drink early, not enough for all people.
Then someobe said want order the BEER or not?
Oh yeah..
After decided, I phone to the counter then order one bucket (6 bottle) of HEINEKEN
All my friends add ices except my glass.
Only all beer, other mix with ices, so no easy to drunk.
That my third times I drink beer with my friends.

The first time I drink is Chinese New Year time.
Second time is I working in MP restaurant take the first salary, my worker belanja us drink in MP when working time

HEHE....

Happy!! Really happy in the KBOX.
Really enjoy it on the time.

Worry about my future!

I suddenly feel that I choose teacher course correct or not?
Suitable for me or not?
I feel worry about that....
Because that is for my future, my whole life........

Last time I'm interesting in eletronic and electric
That mean last time I want study about the eletronic and electric enginering course..
But the fees very expensive..
RM30,000++
If I really study this course,maybe after I finish study no job then die....
Waste time, money...
Haiz...
Form 6?
I really don't know..

I get 2 difference comment from my worker.

One is my captain.
He said almost same to me.
He ask me why don't want study the easy to study and easy to get job
Like accountat and business....
But I really no interest on that...

Another one is waiter.
He ask why don't want try make one own business
Easy to earn more money, no need worry the studying things..
He said after you study which you study the course, you really got use that knowledge or the skill which you sget from study?
I really can't answer this question.

Now I headache again...
And worry about My study and my future!