How many times I need to fail again?

Today morning I take undang test after my breakfast,

then register it and straight go in take the undang test.

I do it carefully and slowly with mind clearly and without any distrubing and noise...

I double checking all my question and answer!

But I'm don't have fully confidence all my answer is correct.

Lastly My time remain 2 minutes and 27seconds...

Lastly I press keputusan...

When I see my overall result...

At that time, I really can't believe with my eyes.

My feeling very sad...

My mood very down and down until my tears also come out....

After take undang test, back home, bath do housework then go work...

When I'm working, all staff which know me today take test asked me...

I said the truth to them....

They all ask me no study ah? Why fail again!!!!!!!

I keep listening their word which really hurt me!!!!

I cry out when I work time!!!

I really no mood to take test again...
I tell to my cousin book next month undang...

Then they all say only me in all cousin group,I take 4 times still fail the undang!

They all say me is can't concentrate on study because Im busy working..

They all want me stopped my work!!!

I really don't know what I want to do...

If I really stop my work, I need write a letter before one month resign!!!!!

If I stop now my salary will cut down!
I really don't know....

Many things keep distrubing my mind!!!!!

Sad!!!!!

We crying on the night!

I reli feel sorry to my dear ..
Very sorry!!!
Please forgive me make you so hurt before......
Although time is passed so fast, I also don't think it will make us forget about it!

SORRY!!!!!

At that night, when you say out yours feeling,
I really know last time I really hurt you very strong...
Both of us cry out, tears and nasal discharge also come out !
When we talk in handphone also can know both of us are crying and the stuffed-up noses' sound.

After I hear you say that happen which I make you so sad, hurting your heart.
I also crying because I know I'm wrong.....
Really sorry, darling!

I really falling overfully love on you...
200% love on you, not 100% !
I love you forever, dear!

Big present at April Fool !

Haiz...
Really big present for me when April Fool..
HAIZ..........................

Today, I off day, no working.
I wake up same time do the same house work.
After having my breakfast roti canai take away from my mother.
Eating and watch Hong Kong movie E.U. last episod.
After finish watch,I go bath n go out have my undang test of 2nd times

First time of last week, I getting 36/50 with studying until 3am at midnight.
Second time of today, I getting 41/50 without any study until burning midnight oil.
But also FAIL.....
Haiz....

My dear really guess correct.
He said me no study sure fail it and he also say later you get the 41 per 50 result then you know...
Choi...
But lastly also 41 ahhhhhhhhh..................

Haiz....
really make me dispointed in this times...
Bad mood today!

Haiz!!!!!!!