Now i work at MP5 steamboat!

Haha...
Now i work at MP5 steamboat..
Im a cashier and service crew....
I work at MP already one week...
Yesterday I very tired...sudden have many customer come to MP eat...
very busy... my dinner also eat at 9pm...
Haiz...
but I work at there very happy...
other staff also always chit chating...joking...
there also very funny..esplecially is one of the staff which named is Mr Bean..we called he Bobo..
He really like "Mr Bean", always joking....
Haha...
Hope more and more customers come to Restaurant MP5 steamboat to eat and enjoy their lunch, teatime,dinner and supper.....

Attention all ipoh friends!!

Now Restaurant MP5 steamboat which is behind Jusco is new open are making promosion..

At there is merry go around..

All foods are put on the go round..

At there also got Ala-carte order...

Now ONLY MP5 steamboat is making the promosion...

The promo time is at 12pm-3pm and 10pm-11.30pm got RM9.90+ buffet promo..

U can eat all as u like on the round,soup base is RM1 and the chinese tea is RM1 can refill many times...

TOTAL PER PERSON IS RM11.90+

This promo end at 31 of Discember..

Children which height is between 0.9metre and 1.0 metre the promo price is RM5, but the children is below 0.9 metre is free of charge...

This promo open everyday include saturday and sunday and also at public holiday include X'mas n New Year eve...

If u cant eat at the promo time, u oso can eat at other time,so the price is count per plate..

FASTER COME TO MP5 STEAMBOAT EAT..

Want to know more information, u can online in www.movenpeak.com.my or u can phone this number 05-5463218

I sudden cry out!!!

Last night, I think back when we happy together, our smsing time and also chating time....
I sudden cry out..
Why?
Is it I really sad and feel deplore?
But I really is it I'm still dreaming?
I'm feel sorry to you...
Can you give me some response...
Now I really feel deplore about when you say that to me...
I did't ask about the reason we want "separate"?
Is it you really feel difficult on our time?
But O.K. loh!
Is Ok!!!!!

今天我们真的分手了！

今天我们真的分手了！
我们在2912开始我们的恋爱。曾经在255分开过，当时我们在一起都没有超过半年，过后我们又复合。复合后，你的心因为有条疤痕了，总是提起以前曾分开的事，我都很不喜欢、很讨厌！过后事情好像淡了，也没常提起！
过了我的生日，你有送礼物给我，因为礼物很迟才到，我生日都过了三个星期，礼物才到手。不懂什么事，我们都好像一直吵架似，我们彼此都曾哭过、曾流下伤心的泪水。现在我又要去云顶做工，所以我们更加少联络，所以昨晚暗示想分手，长痛不如短痛。但我还是没开口说，就只当没发生过、没暗示过。事情不在我预料之中的事今早你竟然开口对我说：“如果我们再继续下去，我们只有辛苦,不如我们分手！”
当你说分手时，我没有任何的反应，没哭、没流泪。难道我真的是冷血的？我不想挽回这还未过一年的恋情，因为我也觉得很辛苦、很累了。
对不起，给了你一个伤心难忘的恋爱回忆。可能这次是我最后一次的远距离恋爱。
我暂时不想恋爱，也好！自己也少烦一件事情！

Finish My SPM...

Haha...happy...Finish my SPM liao...
Don't know is happy or what feeling...Because is after exam bore at home, still not yet find a job.
But today I go find near my house, I find a job which is handphone shop(digi) but the salary is RM600 per month only. For me is low compare with my sister work at UO shopping centre is RM3.50 per hour. She work one day 8 hours break one hour,overtime is salary 1.5 time. So I hope I can work at high salary job and I work can count long time also compare with my sister, because she just work at there 5 week only. I work at least 4 month.
If i go there work, tired is sure have because can't sit for rest and maybe transport is problem and the lunch maybe have problem...
But i hope I can work at a high salary....

Special keychain from You!

I remember this keychain...

Since 10 of February which is chinese new year the fourth day, I meet my boyfriend together at a shopping centre at taiping. At that time, we walk at that shopping centre already twice or third time. So boring, at that time,we just chatting and walk.

At that time, you give this special keychain which you buy at Singapore at Discember, 2007. You always said it is a pig. This keychain is a sleeping girl which wear a sleeping hat. Its eyes are a pair of crystals and its hat also have it.

One day, I go to state library with KahYean, YiTing, KuanFei and CheeKheong from Ipoh Parade. On the way, my pencil box drop down and I pick up it and I don't know the keychain also drop. When I reach the library I saw the keychain is missing and I cry out. I did't go back find it because at outside very hot and long journey from library.

The next day after school, I go back that road which I pass before yesterday and XueYin also accompany me to go and we found back. At that time, I very happy and very thank to XueYin.

Since that happen, I did't not hang it on anywhere adn put it in my room.

Now I think back I felt I very stupid and my boyfriend mother also said me "just a simple keychain, don't care about her safety!"But for is a special keychain and bringing a meaning.
HeHe........

My new MP3---Mickey Mouse MP3

This is my new MP3. Mickey Mouse MP3....Cute, Fashion,Easy( The Disney Mplayer slogan)

This MP3 is my boyfrriend give me as my birthday present.

Although I receive is at 24/11 and my birthday is at 31/10, I also happy when I receive this cute MP3!

Thanks you, dear! You no need so dispointed and sad because I receive late. I'm already happy you give me this special present.Muakz!!!

When I receive the mickey Mp3, I saw the box mickey very "flower", so i wrap with the A4 colour paper. Then the "flower" box become nice colour box.

Hehe...

Yi TiNg N $Hi0w cHi@n BirtHday pResEnT!

This both present is want to give two friends which birthday at 18th November. One is given to my best friend, Yi Ting which is present in yellow colour box. And another green colour is given to Shiow Chian.
原本 I'm just give Yi Ting only, 难道 both birthday at the same day and both also my classmate, I'm just given one person only meh.....
Wah...This time my dompet 大出血....
Yi Ting present is a table lamp which is bear shape in brown colour.I cant find purple in colour because Yi Ting like purple colour.
So sorry lah,Yi Ting!
Shiow CHian present is a golden stars photo flame with our dinner night 5S11 our class in skirt photo... I give her this present have a special meaning. This present with stars flame like last time 5S11 decorate our dinner front stage and back stage..The front stage which inside the hall have many colour of stars....The flame just like the stage...
So , don't forget we 曾经辛苦过....努力过....
Friendship forever..And 5S11 is always the best......
HaHaHa!!!!

Taking my important exam now!!!--(SPM)

Long time didn't write my blog liao because i having my important examination that is SPM.
I think that examination important is the result I take is for my future. I use it to continue study in form 6 or in college. Or i use it to find a temporary job or a full time work in my life time.
Now I'm just finish my malay paper, english paper, history paper which I hate it and sure fail it and my favourite subject mathematics paper.
In my this important exam, i felt that this time not very stress and I feel too relax and I take this exam like school exam only. Is it i too scare or i really don't care about my exam?
But I really hope i can get a better result. Surely I very study hard to get my best result.
No one can do nothing to get best thing !!!

滿准的噢...birthday colour..

10月24日- 11月11日=白色
＊黑色＊
你樂於接受挑戰，因為你擁有接受挑戰的勇氣。但你並不喜歡改變你自己的生活方式。一旦你落實了一個決定，你會長久地朝著這個方向走。你的愛情也是充滿挑戰和有點與別不同。
＊白色＊
你的人生充滿著夢和理想。你對周遭的事有點漠不關心，容易妒忌。你是較為獨特的一群，有時侯，你心中想法總會比別人高深一點。

My 17th birthday!

Thanks all my friends.
Thanks their wish and all my friends which give me present..

They help me celebrate my birthday at Fantasy. They book a room celebrate with Sheau Yu who are 30/10 birthday. Wendy don't like she celebrate with me because something..

HAiz...I feel that a small thing then don't make like big thing happen.

I’m very happy and hopefully we all can always friendship forever!!!

Friendship Forever...

But I'm also happy all the day.

At night my family also celebrate with me. They go MP(Moven Peak Restaurant) eat steambot. Their steambot are 1 person 1 bowl. So siok...After that,we go Jaya Jusco play bowling. We 5 person play which is daddy.mummy, my sister,brother and me.We fight with high mark..Haha..Luckily is my mark is the 2nd low mark not me is the lowest..Too bad!!!

I'm very happy because my 17th birthday have many peolpe help to celebrate with me.

Thanks for friends and my family..

Thanks You!!!!

1/11/2008

Today, my friend Suki want take my boyfriend phone number. She say want find he because she at Subang at that time.
Actually my heart has a little bit sour taste, never mind lah. He just accompany Suki.
Haiz……
I don’t why I have that stupid feeling, maybe I too worry about that kind of thing.
Hehe…… Now I waiting my present which is my boyfriend give. I have a little bit “tidak bersabar” because I always go library very boring without music same as stay at home. Some time I also can’t hear music from pen drive through TV at home. But is O.K. lah.
I’m waiting my MICKEY MOUSE MP3 oh!!
Dear love you oh!! Muakz!!

Boring at whole day!

Today my sisters' friend who already know my sister thing come to me ask about my sister!!
But i just once my sister friend only .I think i can trust she will not tell to other people or her friend!!
Today so boring at school!! nothing to do at school. Just chatting with friend only. After that i go library. At that i saw my friends, wendy n ah leong!! After that,wendy's friend come also. He teach Wendy math.
HEHE!!
I feel that guy not like form 6 because he not clever woh! BUt i heard from Wendy ,he study at Sam Tet which for me is good school n have many smart student study at there...BUt.....Why??? Hehe...
Is it i think Im clever ?
Why I say like that is Because when he teach Wendy he also have somthing don't know..but I think he already forget jor...!!
Hehe...english literature also have said don't think too successful and don't to show off our clever for someone to see it, they will think you so sombong!! And don't too proud sendiri is clever than other people!
Actually he is O.K. lah, friend call he ,then he say yes then come out but just late abit!!....
HAHA!!!

already find back my sister!!

We already find back my sister. Yesterday she takes bus goes to taiping. She goes to my grandmother house!
This message is from my uncle. My grandmother’s neighbor ask my mother when my mother phone to ask is it my sister at there.
They ask why alone come to taiping without family. Then my mother tell them and call my grandmum don’t give money to my sister. My sister so brave go to taiping which so far away from ipoh and she just alone!

I started to worry she will go where……….

Today is the first day my sister run away from house.
Yesterday before dinner time, I sit in front of computer online and my sister is beside me and she call me later hers turn to play computer and online.
Before that, my mother said later don’t want give my sister touch personal computer because after she online, computer detect many small tiny virus from scanning AVG Virus. So my mother make an order don’t let she play computer. So this I don’t go away from computer and I don’t say anything to my sister. Then she say if I don’t give she play then一拍两散。But I also don’t go away from computer’s chair and sit there don’t say anything. She said again after 10 minute if I don’t go away then she will let me know something. Then she straight away goes back to her room.
After 10 minute, she come out her room and said “You really don’t want give me play, then ok!” then she pull the telephone line which is connect to computer modem and telephone then she take away, tile together and take to her room and keep it don’t let us take from her. That we can’t online and she also can’t use computer. My mother says if she later doesn’t give out the wire then my mother will punish her and beat her. But she still doesn’t give it out.
The peperangan antara ahli rumah saya telah bermula!
After my mother, dad and also my aunty playing mahjong, my mother ask again, she still don’t want give us the wire! My mother finds the Rotan and goes to her room start to scold her and beat her. She said loudly to my mother she call my mum out from her room, my mum sure don’t want. Then she take the 衣架 from her cupboard and scold my mum and say it again out from her room. Same it, my mother don’t want go out because she still keep the computer wire. Then my sister start to beat use that衣架 and my mother use Rotan to beat. Then my dad don’t tahan that of thing happen between them, he take the belt go straight to her room and beat. My dad says “say sorry to mother” my sister says she don’t have ant fault and why she want to apologize to my mother. Then my dad use belt to beat her with the strong power.
After 10 minute my dad finish beat my sister, my sister run away from home. My dad calls police from Bercham and Simee. He say want send her to pusat pemulihan better dirogol oleh orang lain. At that time the clock show the time is 8.45p.m.
The clock show the time near 11.00 p.m., my dad start go out find her, before that we already phone sisters’ friend and they say she don’t stay at their home. My dad also call my cousin biao ge and tang ge help my dad go around to find my sister back. But my sister also not yet come back when the time is 12.30am already. Then my dad back and stop finding.
I started to worry she will go where……….

A letter from Singapore!

Today i just receive a letter from singapore. That letter is from managent development institute of singapore (MDIS).
When i read it, the course that I can and which I 'm intersting is diploma in travel and hospitality management. Duration is 7 semester and the fees is S$5200.00.
For me, i feel that is cheap compare to the INTI College but if I study at singapore sure must live at singapore alone without any friends...
Haiz!!!
But I sure will not study at singapore which is too far from my family and friends!!

SPM is near...

Now my feeling very pelik because now my feeling is happy or scare or don’t know lah!!!
Now I very blur blur...
SPM is near. 11-11-2008 is my first day starting my final exam in my secondary school and end the examination at 1-12-2008. These date I sure wont forget because that examination also makes decision in my whole life time.
Its decision I want go to continue study or start working. Its also decide I want go to study form 6 or college.
Now I can’t do anything to change that and I too worry about that.
But now I really can do is study hard and hard to improve all my subject. Take a better result in SPM examination, if can take good result is better than better result lah!!

They already din talk long time!

This few day, in my family happen a lot of thing which I can’t imagine.
I started to worry about much thing, like family.
My sister and my mother didn’t talk with each other long time, near one month! But I still can’t solve it. I really scare they will not talk again. Last Saturday, my mother went out bought loteri and bought something for us to eat. At that time, my sister and my dad not yet came back. Then my brother, my mum and I eat together. After a few minute, my sister and dad also come back. Then I ask my sister want to eat thing which is my mum buy, then she give me response and she said becareful later someone put poison in the food you also don’t know.Washai...She say like that!!!
When she say it I very angry, but I also can’t say anything because they are in “cold fight”. My dad tell me both of them also having bad habits and their “pi qing” also bad.
When they will stop this kind of “cold fight”?
But I think is when ones say sorry just can solve this fight.
Haiz… This stupid of idea sure wont happen on both of them…

My trial examination’s result is out......

So bad my trial exam!! Haiz... But I already try my best.. These are my mark for every subject and the grad!!

Bahasa Malaysia---------------------------54---6C
Bahasa Cina---------------------------------58---6C
Bahasa Inggeris-----------------------------43---7D
Pendidikan Moral--------------------------56---6C
Sejarah----------------------------------------18---9G
Modern Mathematics----------------------87---1A
Additional mathematics------------------52---6C
Chemistry-------------------------------------62---5C
Physics------------------------------------------65---4B
Prinsip Akaun--------------------------------53---6C
English for Science and Technology------48---7E

Sad because my forecast result.

Today I’m very sad because my forecast result... Although my result are passing and didn’t have any subject fail yet, I also don’t like my result. Although my result have one A, I also don’t like my result. My result just forty and fifty mark some thing only.
Actually, I have a bit don’t like other people who are get higher mark than me. They all already improve many, including my class monitor who always fails many subjects but I know she is good in math. Now her forecast result is better than me. I feel I’m always good and always take the best result in math but she already exceed my result. Her English, account and other subject also exceed my mark. I can see she put more effort in this forecast exam. I very sad because I can’t take another 3 A’s in add math, physics and chemistry although I take A in math but for me 87% is bad mark. I have many confidences in my physics and add math but I only take grad C. Furthermore, my add math drop from 72% to 52% and my math also from 91% drop to 87%. I’m really sad.
Shiow Chian, my classmate who is good in account. She also get 3 A’s in her math, add math and account. I’m very worry about their results will exceed my results much better. I very scare. I started to scare about that. I worry I will lose anything. I don’t like and hate the feeling of loses. Every people also don’t like lose and wanted win everything. That mean, I’m a “kiasu” people.
Today, English teacher ask at class “who is good in math?” .Everyone say is me. Then teacher call me help her to count the total mark of English and EST. Although it is proud for me, I don’t like that because when my math become badly, none of people will say to you, talk with you and they maybe will go far from me. Then I’m will find a hole to bury my self.
Now, I started to have scare feeling in my future. I started to feel don’t want to study after SPM. Because I want everything is prefect and everything must be in good, the best in everything in my life. I will a decision; maybe I don’t want to continue to study after SPM although forecast result and my SPM result is in good or bad. I’m just wanted to be a part time job worker then I will feel that enough for me in my life.

Why I have this kind of sister?

I’m sad because my family.. Before that my daddy and mummy quarrelling each other .. At that time, I very scare and crying out in room. My brother also crying beside me in my room! At the midnight, they quarrel very loudly sound. But now both of them already nothing and both of them also talking to each other. Happily and laugh out loudly together.
Today, I think no! Because my sister quarrel again with my mother again. This time my sister quarrel with y mother very “big”. This morning she quarrel, she say she don’t want do housework and don’t want to help my mother do any thing. She also say she swear “I’m XXX(my sister) don’t want be XXX(my mother) daughter already.” Them my mum call her go pray in front of God. Then she throw her mop which is he do half way mopping and straight go in front of God and say out loudly. Them run to her room!
I’m very scare, I’m very scare I loss my younger sister… But when they quarreling, I didn’t have any response. I didn’t cry and sad and I didn’t to advise them because I feel this is my sister’s fault. Then my mother punishs my sister with cane. My sister cry and cry. But I also didn’t to stop them!! I sudden felt my self so “cool”!
I don’t know why I became like that. Maybe I agree my mother said that. I’m became a daughter is respect parent and help parent to ligten their load. But my sister didn’t. I scare my sister will became bad and stubborn and not respectfully.
I am scare and sad why I have like that kind of sister. Why?

wake up at midnight to write a blog without permission!!

Yertesday he did call me at night! He have a 习惯, that is every day before I sleep sure have a night call... But yesterday he didn't have...Because he is at cyber cafe!不方便 to call me at there....
Actually I don knw why I don't like people go cyber cafe because at there for me is a place for people to smoke, to join friends, to play computer games, to chat loudly and more! So i didn't go in before....
I have a little bit 不爽的心情 because he didn't call me yesterday because he is in cyber cafe... But nevermind lah!! HE wanted to play games and also chatting with his friends who is already long time didn't have meet each other... But don't let me know he have a smoke at there.... Don't let me kow he at there join smoker.... I'm not bloking he make friends but all people know if you join with smoker, your healthy also will affected! His healthy alredy not good, I'm scare about his any thing! Hopefully this all thing will not come true....
When say about dreams coming true, he also say he wanted paktor with me and go whole of world to play... Haha.... Who don't want? If have chances I sure wanted to go with you!

Haiz!!!

Yesterday, I’m cry when I chatting with my boyfriend! I cry because I already hurt my boyfriend’s heart. I hurt him last time when I said to him “separate” that time… I’m crying out…. I feel very kesal when last time I said “separate”… My heart was hurt and sad now.i don’t know why I kesal ..

Actually I don’t want tell him, but I hear he always say that parut make him so pain.. That parut of his heart was can’t disappear from his heart… I don’t know what I can do? Then I tell him straight away…I said I kesal is that time I tell you want “separate” or together back once again make him scare and always say scare hurt again kesal…

I don’t know…. I realy don’t know what cani do to make him? I very hate he always said he on love no confidence and always said that parut make him very scare, scare will happen once again…

Haiz!!!

爱情道理

Today, my mother chat with me afternoon. She say when you do every thing don’t too serious. Then I say “Ehm, like what? Give me an example.”.. Then she say she feel very 可怜when every people do something very seriously…

I feel that 奇怪,why she suddenly said that kind of thing. Then I also said give me some example, like what…then she told me like love. Don’t too seriously in love , because it will make you loss something. Like if you in love seriously, your boyfriend will felt he is important for me, then he wil felt you is can’t loss him, then you will let him very you is not “expensive” and is cheap.

Oh!!!原来my mother 兜那么大的圈is tell me is 爱情道理. And after that she also tell me don’t always say you have boyfriend or you already in the relationship or you got boyfriend already… because it also make you 吃亏.. She say you must 公平的对待全部人,even through is男朋友,男性朋友 or 女性朋友! All also must fare and same…

After that I heard from my mother’s爱情道理, I felt that my mum said also true and I feel yes.. But when she say don’t too seriously, I didn’t give any response for hers. Because if I don’t serious mean I play my love…But if serious it will make me loss something , then what can I do?

Chinese Debate Society farewell and K-box

Saturday, this my Chinese Debate Society farewell party! Im very surprice. Im very happy that day! My junior "waste" their study time to celebrate our farewell..At that day, Shu Tien's mother prepare spagatti and jelly for our farewell party!Nicole also prepare fried nugget,fried hotdog,fried big fishball ang aslo many types of juices..Furthermore, Yee Sin also buy a coffee favourite's cake!That coffee cake for me is too sweet...Hehe..I don't like food which is too sweet.Haha!!!
After my farewell when end at 10.00 morning,i wait until near 11 o'clockwith my sister and friend,Nicole.Then we walk to near my school's shopping centre,Ipoh Parade!We walk there at 11.15am.Then go around the parade,until my boyfriend,Kok Cheng take bus went to Ipoh Parade..He reach to Parade at 12.30 p.m.Then we sit at Marybrown there wait Kok Cheng...
When my darling come to parade,He give a ring!At the ring got word"love you i'm very happy"hehe..i also give him two keychain...one is horoscope keychain one is I love you forever which half words.. HeHe...because another half is my wan..then we wait my friends,Suki Yong,Xue Yin, Yi Ting,Yi Ting brother,Yi Ting cousin,Kah yean,Kah Yean friend,Kwan Ning!Then we go K-box singing.That is my first time i go to K-box with my friends and my dear!That day is my friends Kah Yean's birthday..After that,when my clock show 4.20pm ,that mean my K-box"journey" is end!When at K-box,I very happy because I can stay with my dear！hehe..at that time...we eat, we sing,we drink,we play...HAPPY!!!!
Say true..I do not why i realy dont like waste my dear's money!But every time when i see what thing i like sure will think Kok Cheng..Is it mean 日有所思，夜有所梦?But also think my purse...haiz..but when i tell to him,he always say buy for me!this i realy dont like..because his money mean his mother money..but he always say"haiya my mother give me jor that mean my money loh,dont worry"! I dont like！！！！but after that i will think haiz why i dont let he buy for me, i will not waste my money, and also got that thing i want!...Haiz!!!Me always like that！my fikiran always like that！So矛盾...

短暂的九天假期！

短暂的九天假期！哈芝节（马来人的新年）的来临，所以我又要闷一个星期多。或许我不会觉得闷，因为不息的功课堆积累累。多篇的作文要写，审视还要温习我的化学，作中四的化学笔记给朋友。

坏习惯

最近，我都和朋友不和，都一直吵架。因为我不喜欢她的态度、行为。但在这短短的五天时间。我都不懂自己在做什么？一直就自己想逗回她开心，我觉得自己也有点过分。不过，又过了一阵子，我又想明明就是她对我的态度不佳，自己何必对她好呢！
星期六就是他生日，我原本打算送大份的礼物给她，逗回她开心，不懂什么原因，又弄到我想送回小份的礼物。今天她和朋友叫我星期六去卡拉OK，我答应了他们。我又不想失礼，就送回大份的礼物。
一瞬间，觉得自己一时一样。这就是没有主见的我！有时，我很讨厌自己这一点的。但…！唉…算了吧！从不改的坏习惯！

Want be a what in future?

Can who tell me and who are wanted to be engineering..Can some body give me some tips..But want be a engineering, I hear from my teacher this job is for boys, girls is not suitable..But i really like want to be engineering and is about electronics and electrical like repair computer hardware..Because that my interesting...
But I also think be a hardware engineering also good for future..Can I take both courses in college..I finish saw the inti college at subang jaya from website, when I saw the fees,wah!!! So expensive!!RM23,760
I like math..especially additional mathematics..People say me:"Is it u crazy? Why always like that kind difficult thing".But for me is good, have interest to think more, let the brain "move" more,so the brain will not "die"!!SWEAT....=_='''
Hehe..say true ..i have a bit confuse my self..Want be teacher teach math or add math? Or want be engineering leh?Haiz..

WANT BE A WHAT IN FUTURE ?????

My first day!

today,im very sad because i already make my friend cry..i have a bit kesal! but now my feeling realy do not..i also cant , do no how say now my feeling..
我为了朋友愿意牺牲任何的东西，牺牲前来买礼物来逗回朋友的欢心，我宁愿。
但为什么我的友谊从小学到中学，我都成为中间人？我都是迁就朋友的人？我有点不甘心。但一些都是上天的安排。
hw to change all tis thing..i very difficult to make a decision..i very矛盾..i reli wan some one can help me to solve tis problem..but is cant,,imposible!
朋友是要一心一意的对待。我已付出全真心，但依然没有人懂。我曾经想过不要任何的朋友，甚至爱情。我宁可放弃，但我这会伤到身边的人。我不能太自私、不能只顾自己。我头开始痛了。