Haiz!!!

Yesterday, I’m cry when I chatting with my boyfriend! I cry because I already hurt my boyfriend’s heart. I hurt him last time when I said to him “separate” that time… I’m crying out…. I feel very kesal when last time I said “separate”… My heart was hurt and sad now.i don’t know why I kesal ..

Actually I don’t want tell him, but I hear he always say that parut make him so pain.. That parut of his heart was can’t disappear from his heart… I don’t know what I can do? Then I tell him straight away…I said I kesal is that time I tell you want “separate” or together back once again make him scare and always say scare hurt again kesal…

I don’t know…. I realy don’t know what cani do to make him? I very hate he always said he on love no confidence and always said that parut make him very scare, scare will happen once again…

Haiz!!!

爱情道理

Today, my mother chat with me afternoon. She say when you do every thing don’t too serious. Then I say “Ehm, like what? Give me an example.”.. Then she say she feel very 可怜when every people do something very seriously…

I feel that 奇怪,why she suddenly said that kind of thing. Then I also said give me some example, like what…then she told me like love. Don’t too seriously in love , because it will make you loss something. Like if you in love seriously, your boyfriend will felt he is important for me, then he wil felt you is can’t loss him, then you will let him very you is not “expensive” and is cheap.

Oh!!!原来my mother 兜那么大的圈is tell me is 爱情道理. And after that she also tell me don’t always say you have boyfriend or you already in the relationship or you got boyfriend already… because it also make you 吃亏.. She say you must 公平的对待全部人,even through is男朋友,男性朋友 or 女性朋友! All also must fare and same…

After that I heard from my mother’s爱情道理, I felt that my mum said also true and I feel yes.. But when she say don’t too seriously, I didn’t give any response for hers. Because if I don’t serious mean I play my love…But if serious it will make me loss something , then what can I do?

Chinese Debate Society farewell and K-box

Saturday, this my Chinese Debate Society farewell party! Im very surprice. Im very happy that day! My junior "waste" their study time to celebrate our farewell..At that day, Shu Tien's mother prepare spagatti and jelly for our farewell party!Nicole also prepare fried nugget,fried hotdog,fried big fishball ang aslo many types of juices..Furthermore, Yee Sin also buy a coffee favourite's cake!That coffee cake for me is too sweet...Hehe..I don't like food which is too sweet.Haha!!!
After my farewell when end at 10.00 morning,i wait until near 11 o'clockwith my sister and friend,Nicole.Then we walk to near my school's shopping centre,Ipoh Parade!We walk there at 11.15am.Then go around the parade,until my boyfriend,Kok Cheng take bus went to Ipoh Parade..He reach to Parade at 12.30 p.m.Then we sit at Marybrown there wait Kok Cheng...
When my darling come to parade,He give a ring!At the ring got word"love you i'm very happy"hehe..i also give him two keychain...one is horoscope keychain one is I love you forever which half words.. HeHe...because another half is my wan..then we wait my friends,Suki Yong,Xue Yin, Yi Ting,Yi Ting brother,Yi Ting cousin,Kah yean,Kah Yean friend,Kwan Ning!Then we go K-box singing.That is my first time i go to K-box with my friends and my dear!That day is my friends Kah Yean's birthday..After that,when my clock show 4.20pm ,that mean my K-box"journey" is end!When at K-box,I very happy because I can stay with my dear！hehe..at that time...we eat, we sing,we drink,we play...HAPPY!!!!
Say true..I do not why i realy dont like waste my dear's money!But every time when i see what thing i like sure will think Kok Cheng..Is it mean 日有所思，夜有所梦?But also think my purse...haiz..but when i tell to him,he always say buy for me!this i realy dont like..because his money mean his mother money..but he always say"haiya my mother give me jor that mean my money loh,dont worry"! I dont like！！！！but after that i will think haiz why i dont let he buy for me, i will not waste my money, and also got that thing i want!...Haiz!!!Me always like that！my fikiran always like that！So矛盾...

短暂的九天假期！

短暂的九天假期！哈芝节（马来人的新年）的来临，所以我又要闷一个星期多。或许我不会觉得闷，因为不息的功课堆积累累。多篇的作文要写，审视还要温习我的化学，作中四的化学笔记给朋友。

坏习惯

最近，我都和朋友不和，都一直吵架。因为我不喜欢她的态度、行为。但在这短短的五天时间。我都不懂自己在做什么？一直就自己想逗回她开心，我觉得自己也有点过分。不过，又过了一阵子，我又想明明就是她对我的态度不佳，自己何必对她好呢！
星期六就是他生日，我原本打算送大份的礼物给她，逗回她开心，不懂什么原因，又弄到我想送回小份的礼物。今天她和朋友叫我星期六去卡拉OK，我答应了他们。我又不想失礼，就送回大份的礼物。
一瞬间，觉得自己一时一样。这就是没有主见的我！有时，我很讨厌自己这一点的。但…！唉…算了吧！从不改的坏习惯！

Want be a what in future?

Can who tell me and who are wanted to be engineering..Can some body give me some tips..But want be a engineering, I hear from my teacher this job is for boys, girls is not suitable..But i really like want to be engineering and is about electronics and electrical like repair computer hardware..Because that my interesting...
But I also think be a hardware engineering also good for future..Can I take both courses in college..I finish saw the inti college at subang jaya from website, when I saw the fees,wah!!! So expensive!!RM23,760
I like math..especially additional mathematics..People say me:"Is it u crazy? Why always like that kind difficult thing".But for me is good, have interest to think more, let the brain "move" more,so the brain will not "die"!!SWEAT....=_='''
Hehe..say true ..i have a bit confuse my self..Want be teacher teach math or add math? Or want be engineering leh?Haiz..

WANT BE A WHAT IN FUTURE ?????

My first day!

today,im very sad because i already make my friend cry..i have a bit kesal! but now my feeling realy do not..i also cant , do no how say now my feeling..
我为了朋友愿意牺牲任何的东西，牺牲前来买礼物来逗回朋友的欢心，我宁愿。
但为什么我的友谊从小学到中学，我都成为中间人？我都是迁就朋友的人？我有点不甘心。但一些都是上天的安排。
hw to change all tis thing..i very difficult to make a decision..i very矛盾..i reli wan some one can help me to solve tis problem..but is cant,,imposible!
朋友是要一心一意的对待。我已付出全真心，但依然没有人懂。我曾经想过不要任何的朋友，甚至爱情。我宁可放弃，但我这会伤到身边的人。我不能太自私、不能只顾自己。我头开始痛了。